ocd

So you may have read my last post about my ocd thoughts if I am dealing with homosexuality or not, and of course ocd makes everything feel real. I got tired of fearing be attracted to the same-sex, and of course I was never going to give in. I searched up some rather inappropriate images- to...

I want to explain this well but I don’t know if I can for you all to see what it was like. It’s a long read. I remember I sang this song called satan is your master when I was 14. I didn’t think it was bad or anything. It was catchy. When I was about 15 or 16 I got obsessed with climate change...

In the past I’ve supported homosexuality, and I thought girls were just as attractive as guys. When I became a real Christian, Jesus sent someone to tell me that lgbt is not love and from the devil. I stopped supporting it. When I saw a girl all I saw was, well, a girl. With my ocd acting up...

I have many mental disorders and it makes following God VERY hard (Ahem...OCD, anorexia, anxiety, depression, borderline personality-->suicidality, self-harm) I decided to stay home and do community college and then transfer to a local college so I could be involved in local churches and...

Since about March 28th, I’ve been having intrusive thoughts about someone. But those intrusive thoughts were all fears. “You’re worshipping them.” “You want to hurt them.” They’re your god.” “They’re gonna hurt you.” I don’t know what to do. I love this person, fellowship-wise, but I’ve never...

Hello, it's me again. I'm afraid I'm becoming a regular poster of problems on here, which I'm not exactly proud of. I'm afraid of the pentagram, plain and simple. And I'm afraid of drawing it. And I obsess over whether or not, when my fingertips happen to scratch against a surface, whether or...

Please help someone. I cannot go on the way I am. I want to stop analyzing good things and saying it’s sinful. I don’t even know if it was or not. Please please read below: My intrusive thoughts have become worse day, by moment, by second. I’m questioning everything I ever knew. Was I really...

I overthink things so much, I don’t even want too. I’ve set up a certain pattern of my Prayers and I can’t say it any other way. I do say different prayers but I need to say a certain one three times a day (morning, noon and night.) i’m overthinking a forming friendship. “What if it was...

Hi again, If you've seen my previous posts, you'll know that I was obsessing over cleaning up my hard drive for anything bad (ie a meme with a bad symbol in the corner or a photo of the street from vacation but someone has a shirt on with a bad symbol on it). I scrubbed my hard drive. Cleaned...

During quarantine my mind has had more time to just be. I’ve been Praying a lot. Except I’m seeing an increase in awful thoughts. Some being blasphemous, things I never ever want to say to God. I can’t treat my Father that way. I love God the most. Some being to people, who I love. I don’t want...

Since quarantine I think I’ve become more grateful of all God has done. I think of recent events that happened where I was filled with joy and would praise God because His faithfulness was there. But maybe I’m looking back so much I’m missing signs of His goodness now- I don’t really know. The...

Alright... where do I begin? Many years ago I was sexually abused. To cope with that I turned to inappropriate contentography. Since I was homeschooled, I barely left the house. I had all the more time to view it. I realized I couldn’t go on living the way I was anymore and I came to God. I became pure and clean...

Prayer is needed. I'm afraid I committed the blasphemy of the holy spirit and doubted the existence of God and thr reliability of the bible. Hi, I'm suffering from blasphemous thoughts as well. I was watching this Christian film called "Chosen" and at the end of the EPISODE 1, I doubted that...

Hi, my name is Megan. I don’t think God loves me because He chose me to be an Esau. And in the scriptures, it says He hated Esau. And that He has mercy on whom He has mercy and chooses to harden who He wants to harden. (Romans 9) I remember reading that when I was a teenager and I didn’t like...

Hello everyone, I hope you're all having a good Good Friday. I'm writing this because on my way home from work today, I had a sudden thought that troubled me greatly: what if something in my house is... well, demonic? At first I was fixated on a book I own (a light hearted detective story called...

Hello again, I keep having these obsessive thoughts that I'm saying something... unholy, to put it vaguely. It's not so bad when I'm at work, because then I can focus on my job and my mind isn't really free to wander. But when I'm off work, in the mornings or evenings, I keep thinking that I've...

One of my friends, a firm atheist, who i have tried to convert multiple times but always refuses, has committed the unforgivable sin on my behalf. I was trying to convert him, telling him to be a christian, and asked him if he dared to commit the unforgivable sin. I told him i dare you to commit...

Hey, it's me again. I've been on a frustrating cycle of thinking I'm saying something sinful (mainly that I'm talking to demons), then praying for forgiveness, then having, like, a few seconds of peace, to going right back where I started. It's gotten so bad that it was a struggle to open my...

Hey all, I've never actually been diagnosed with OCD, but I do feel like I have it at some level. Anyway, one of the things I tend to fixate on is my writing, and where my ideas come from. I've been paranoid that my ideas aren't from me, but from a demon, and for a while this stopped me from...

I’ve been questioning if I have been really born again at all lately. When I converted my freshman year and had genuine positive change / fruit / felt connected to God in my life, I still justified and defended homosexuality (saying it wasn’t a sin, but there was mistranslation issues) without...