- Apr 13, 2020
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- Country
- United States
- Faith
- Eastern Orthodox
- Marital Status
- Single
During quarantine my mind has had more time to just be. I’ve been Praying a lot. Except I’m seeing an increase in awful thoughts. Some being blasphemous, things I never ever want to say to God. I can’t treat my Father that way. I love God the most. Some being to people, who I love. I don’t want to hurt them. I love them. I feel like a monster. Satan’s work. I feel like I’ve lost God’s Will, a friendship that was growing, my future, blessed memories. I feel like I’m not innocent and it’s too late for me to ever be innocent.