Hi! I'm new to these forums.
I was a Christian for many years and never gave it much intellectual thought. Over the last couple years, I started to use reason and logic to analyze the claims which were associated with Christianity as well as what is written in the Bible. Upon doing this, I came to the conclusion that much of what is written in the Bible is mythology. However, many of my good friends as well as my family still attend church and find being in the community so rewarding. I've tried to attend with them, as I don't want to lose the community aspect. But I feel guilty taking up space in the church when I don't believe any of what they're talking about.
The main reasons I can't accept it:
1) contradictions in the Bible
2) the Bible advocates slaughter and killing
3) the logical problems of omniscience, omnipotence and omnibenevolence
4) the mafia boss aspect of it (e.g. "if you don't believe this, you will rot in hell")
I am not a believer, so you are welcome to take my words with caution as you feel appropriate.
It is a sad truth that we are not born with the knowledge of how to love unconditionally but that it is something which we must learn in spite of ourselves and the things which can obscure it: our pride, our lust, our greed, our envy, our hatred and our fear. It is a tragedy which means we walk amongst strangers and can sometimes become a stranger to ourselves, even if we share a common humanity with each other. It is why we can feel most alone around other people. We have to learn how to love ourselves and each other and we have to do it based on having the courage to follow what we know to be true.
I would hope that if the essence of Christianity is the capacity for love, that it would mean that your family and your friends can love and appreciate who you are, whatever your differences. In many ways, having relationships with people who differ from us can enrich us in ways we could not imagine as we learn and share from often alien experiences. You shouldn't have to feel guilty for not sharing a person's beliefs because your value is not in being forced to be the same as others but in being true to who you are.
Now, we all make mistakes and get things wrong and I may be wrong about their being no god, but sometimes it is worth being wrong for the right reasons, rather than be right for the wrong reasons. It is easy to pass a test by repeating the correct answers, but you can get a high score on a test and not be able to apply what you have learned. Life requires not simply knowing the right answers, but also knowing how to apply them even at the right of making mistakes. If the Bible is the book full of the right answers, that is still not the same as being able to live by them.
I probably and reading this wrong but John 14:6 says
"Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me."
And John 14:15 to 14:17 says:
15If you love Me, you will keep My commandments. 16And I will ask the Father, and He will give you another Advocate to be with you forever— 17the Spirit of truth. The world cannot receive Him, because it neither sees Him nor knows Him. But you do know Him, for He abides with you and will be in you.d
And John 15:18 and 15:19 says:
"If the world hates you, understand that it hated Me first. If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you."
I could be wrong but Jesus would probably tell you to follow the truth. He followed it even on to the cross. I'm not suggesting you build your own cross in your backyard and martyr yourself, but living is an exercise in uncertainty. We don't know how it will turn out and whether we will like the outcome; we don't always know if we are the "good guys" or if we worship at the alter of false gods. Sometimes it can be hard to tell when things get out of control and force us to take a path we are unfamiliar with. But we have to take risks to know the truth and know ourselves but that is what faith is for- so we can find out.
Sometimes it takes the greatest act of faith to let go of those things which makes us feel safe, the things we wish were true but we know aren't. I hope a Christian will recognise that you are not giving up your faith, but are in a sense renewing it by having faith in you knowing that you are listening to the spirit of truth that "abides with you and will be in you". If God is out there, have the faith to doubt him and take your own path. If he is out there- he will find you and love you and you should be loved.
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