What's on your mind?

[.Mikha'el.]

May I ask for everyone's prayers, as starting tomorrow night I have five days of work straight, then a long trip out of town for both an exam and a funeral. Then another six out of eight days at work a few days after that. It will be exhausting, to be sure.

Especially if I suffer another dream any one of those nights after work like the one I did early this morning. It was disheartening and felt as real as any night terror, in which I awoke in a dark place where I could not seem to fully open my eyes, and was fearful that I was abandoned and alone in a terrible place of bad memory from my IRL pre-teen childhood. I worried about the abandonment because just before that in the dream I was with my IRL sister, trying to fall asleep as we shared and fondly spoke of better memories of our long-deceased grandmother who we were both close to as kids, so I suppose it was disorienting when I awoke again to find myself in what I could feel was a completely different but familiar (and not at all in a good way) location, to find her and everyone else gone, and no one responded to my calls for help from where I lay paralyzed and unable to see more than a narrow blur in front of me. So perhaps I feared my sister was dead and gone, too. ..... Definitely not a pleasant slumber. Please pray with me that I dream no more of the place that I was in, or suspected I was in despite not being able to fully open my eyes as though I were a newborn struggling to see, as i honestly despise that place, having been a source of few god memories but all too many bad ones. And that i also never again dream of such a situation of fearful abandonment.

The Lord had given me reassurance that He is here despite such a bad night, however.

I'm very sorry for the loss.

 

[GospelS]

Frozen like an Iceland.

You are the flame that's growing deep inside
You are the blazing passion in my eyes
You are the aching shut up in my bones
You are the longing that won't let me go
Let it burn, let it burn now
Oh from the inside out
Let it rage, let it rage now
You are the fire
You are the fire
You're all consuming, You can't be contained
Never relenting, changing everything
You are the love that overwhelms my heart
You are the fire lighting up the dark
Let it burn, let it burn now
Oh from the inside out
Let it rage, let it rage now
You are the fire
You are the fire
Let it burn, let it burn now
Oh from the inside out
Let it rage, let it rage now
You are the fire
You are the fire
Fan the flames 'til the whole world sees us burn
You are the fire
Fan the flames 'til the whole world sees us burn
You are the fire
Fan the flames 'til the whole world sees us burn
You are the fire
Fan the flames 'til the whole world sees us burn
Let it burn, let it burn now
Oh from the inside out
Let it rage, let it rage now
You are the fire
You are the fire
You are the fire

 

[GospelS]

Inside the waters are volcanos and atolls.

“Holy, holy, holy is the LORD of Hosts; all the earth is full of His glory.”

 

[Niels]

ohh no Praying that it may be an opportunity of witness.

Thanks for the encouragement, Sampa. I've had a few conversations with him about matters of faith, over the years. And faith is really what it comes down to. Lately, he has taken to describing himself as more agnostic than atheistic. He's essentially an agnostic atheist, whereas I'm more of an agnostic theist. The topic comes up from time to time. I think most Christians are the latter, in that we have faith where we don't necessarily know the details in an empirical sense.

Apparently, his wife is also a believer, although he dismissively refers to her as a "recovering" Catholic. Her faith may be getting through to him. Some days, he's openly anti-theistic, but other days he seems to enjoy poking holes in the logic of people who claim that God doesn't exist. He's an extrovert and tends to think out loud. It can be good to wrestle with these things. The ball is in his court, so to speak. Ultimately, it's God who calls his people.

There are times when I wish my witness was stronger. I try to clear up misconceptions when they arise, and make practical choices in accordance with my faith, but I'm rarely the one to broach the subject. Most religious discussions in our workplace begin between my boss and a fundamentalist Muslim colleague.

 

[sampa]

Lately, he has taken to describing himself as more agnostic than atheistic. He's essentially an agnostic atheist, whereas I'm more of an agnostic theist.

Very insightful! It's good that you at least have that kind of information. I was going to ask what you meant by agnostic thes but I see the answer below.

think most Christians are the latter, in that we have faith where we don't necessarily know the details in an empirical sense.

That's an interesting concept. I've never heard it detailed in such a way.

Apparently, his wife is also a believer, although he dismissively refers to her as a "recovering" Catholic. Her faith may be getting through to

Usually there is somebody close to them when they have an ax to grind with other Christians. So this is insightful. Recovering Catholic most likely means was hurt by the church.

seems to enjoy poking holes in the logic of people who claim that God doesn't exist.

This is common and it reminds me of the movie Jesus is not Dead. It's when they are apathetic that there are not many doors for witness open.

He's an extrovert and tends to think out loud. It can be good to wrestle with these things. T

That's good and insightful for you and an opportunity of how to pray.

There are times when I wish my witness was stronger. I try to clear up

Believe It or not silence speaks louder many times then words. Of course you've heard the saying actions speak louder than words. I have a friend that is a manager at Walmart for many years and he is quiet. Yet one time he said there was a tract that was left in someone's cash register door and the young woman gave it to him and said I think you would appreciate this more. There were also other opportunities that opened up. Because people are watching him and notice the decisions that he makes.

try to clear up misconceptions when they arise,

That's good! Those are good opportunities. It's probably the same for me is that when the door opens then I can walk through.

 

[sampa]

What's on my mind: Busy day. Starting off with a period costume corset gathering. I wore a pioneer civil war style type of gown and style my hair like Scarlett O'Hara. I had a glittery black bow in the back. It definitely turns some heads and especially when I went Christmas shopping after or an ornament and cards. I think I can reuse the black glittery poofy dress underneath as a Christmas dress if I can find a velvet top or jacket over the spaghetti straps.

After I decided to stop off at a friend's house that was having her 60th birthday and picked up a few truffles at a local chocolate shop. Then to my folks to show off my dress and outfit. Quite fun. Was disappointed in Hallmark, they were sold out of most of their Christmas card boxes and there were no Christian ones. Went to hobby lobby to find it. Every store was jam-packed and everywhere I drove the parking lots were filled. It reminds me of Easter weekend. I couldn't believe how jam-packed everything was. I still try to social distance even though others don't and wear my mask.

A couple of the girlfriends that are up for wearing costumes like myself, I've talked to them about in the spring wearing 1950s dresses to a botanical garden and tea. We have time to start looking at resale shops.

 

[sampa]

Looking forward to a media break the next 7 days. I will allow for maps, weather and a couple of other things besides what I need for work. I checked out over 40 CDs the library. So I'm set on music. Turned all the dating apps with my profile to hidden or pause until I return. Blessings and prayers for all those that I have said I would be praying for.

 

[GodDoesListen55]

Kiddos wore me out!

 

[GospelS]

 

[GospelS]

I am desperate for Your touch
A glimpse of heaven
For the glory of Your Son.
In a moment You can
Turn a life around
Forever to be found in You.
I am reaching out to find
There's nothing greater than
Your love that holds my life.
Your grace and mercy that
Have saved me by Your blood,
And swept away my shame Oh Lord.
Your love is like fire
That burns for all to see.
My only desire
To worship at Your feet.
So let this fire
Consume my life.
Let Your love take me deeper
Pull me closer to where You are,
'Cause all I want is more of You.
And I'm surrender to Your love
Forever humbled by the
Message of the cross.
I stand abandoned in
Your presence and Your embrace,
And I'll never be the same Oh God.
Your love is like fire,
That burns for all to see.
My only desire,
To worship at Your feet.
So let this fire
Consume my life.
Let Your love take me deeper,
Draw me closer to where You are,
'Cause all I want is more of You.
When You call I will follow.
At the cross I surrender all,
Jesus I belong to You.
I belong to You Lord
Your love is like fire,
That burns for all to see.
My only desire,
To worship at Your feet.
Your love is like fire,
That burns for all to see.
My only desire,
To worship at Your feet.
So let this fire
Consume my life.
Let Your love take me deeper,
Draw me closer to where You are,
'Cause all I want is more of You.
When You call I will follow,
At the cross I surrender all,
Jesus I belong to You.
Let Your love take me deeper,
Draw me closer to where You are,
Cause all I want is more of You
When You call I will follow,
At the cross I surrender all,
Jesus I belong to You.

 

[GospelS]

I took Him up the Mountain. He asked, "Father, where is the Lamb?"

I said, "God will provide." Then I bound My Son and laid Him on the Altar.

That painful moment when I reached out my hand and took the knife to slay My Only Son...

 

[GospelS]

I took Him up the Mountain. He asked, "Father, where is the Lamb?"

I said, "God will provide." Then I bound My Son and laid Him on the Altar.

That painful moment when I reached out my hand and took the knife to slay My Only Son...

Yeah. But don't worry. I and My Son are good. Elohim did provide.

 

[GospelS]

Yeah. But don't worry. I and My Son are good. Elohim did provide.

Amen. God bless Abraham.

 

[GospelS]

Amen. God bless Abraham.

You have a crush on Abraham. Everyone knows it.

 

[GospelS]

That painful moment when I reached out my hand and took the knife to slay My Only Son...

What about the pain Your Child had endured?

 

[GospelS]

You have a crush on Abraham. Everyone knows it.

Yeah. The Joy of Saying "I Do" to Him, My Redeemer.

Every time, Every day, I Do, I Do.

Isaiah 54:5.

 

[GospelS]

Every time, Every day, I Do, I Do.

Yes. Be A Doer of His Word, not a hearer ONLY. James 1:22-25.

 

[DragonFox91]

Was gonna watch a movie but didn't. I'm not really into movies. I have to be in the mood. Or I'll get a headache.

 

[GodDoesListen55]

Creepy...

 

[Niels]

I took a break this afternoon, and painted the body and driver figure of an R/C model kit I had sitting around. The paintwork is usually the last part I get to, but it can be frustrating to have an otherwise mechanically-complete vehicle that still needs painting. It's more enjoyable this way.