Ari, whether you feel like it or not, you should do something special on Day 100. Get yourself a special coffee drink, take an hour or few to do whatever you want to do, buy something you've wanted for awhile. 100 days may not seem like loads, but it is. 
You've come so far - and even though every day is still a temptation, you're going to overcome that eventually too.
Same goes for you, Tn. There are still times when I'm madly tempted ... but - maybe this has really helped me, I don't know - I do know that there are a lot of things that hinge on my getting better as soon as I can. Uni, for one. If I end up cutting again, and back in that dark place, then I'm never going to be able to hold up under the stress of uni. And once you've come to realise that you're stronger than you think you are (see, you haven't given in to the urges in 97 and 105 days ... that proves that you're stronger than you think), you'll be able to climb even higher.
Yes, it takes time. Yes, it hurts. Yes, it sucks. But it's worth it. The urges will decrease, I promise. They may not dissipate at the rate that they have for me. I think that depends on how many months/years you've struggled with SI. But the urges will go away for the most part. I'm not promising that they'll go away entirely - my therapist has told me that they probably won't for me - but it doesn't matter, 'cause I know that I'm strong enough to not give in.
I can't describe it very well. It's like a tree. They sway when there are gusts, but rarely do they fall. And they only fall if they're rotten. We may sway a little when there are urges - wish that we could cut, etc. - but we won't fall - i.e., give in to the urges - unless we're rotten - have given up on trying and let the urges sneak in and hijack us.
I hope that makes sense.
You've come so far - and even though every day is still a temptation, you're going to overcome that eventually too. Same goes for you, Tn.
There are still times when I'm madly tempted ... but - maybe this has really helped me, I don't know - I do know that there are a lot of things that hinge on my getting better as soon as I can. Uni, for one. If I end up cutting again, and back in that dark place, then I'm never going to be able to hold up under the stress of uni. And once you've come to realise that you're stronger than you think you are (see, you haven't given in to the urges in 97 and 105 days ... that proves that you're stronger than you think), you'll be able to climb even higher.Yes, it takes time. Yes, it hurts. Yes, it sucks. But it's worth it. The urges will decrease, I promise. They may not dissipate at the rate that they have for me. I think that depends on how many months/years you've struggled with SI. But the urges will go away for the most part. I'm not promising that they'll go away entirely - my therapist has told me that they probably won't for me - but it doesn't matter, 'cause I know that I'm strong enough to not give in.
I can't describe it very well. It's like a tree. They sway when there are gusts, but rarely do they fall. And they only fall if they're rotten. We may sway a little when there are urges - wish that we could cut, etc. - but we won't fall - i.e., give in to the urges - unless we're rotten - have given up on trying and let the urges sneak in and hijack us.
I hope that makes sense.
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