Hello guys,
For a long time I've been trying to reconcile these two truths in my mind: God is in control and man has free will. I've read articles stating that our finite minds cannot understand how this is possible, yet we must accept them as twin truths. This doesn't make any sense in my logical mind! If God is in control, or in charge of my life, then what exactly IS he in control of? A large part of our lives is our interactions with others... so does this mean, for example, if I finish a job interview, and pray to get the job, that God will influence the employer to give me the job? But then is He bypassing his free will? The only way I imagine God can influence our external lives is by "prompting" people's minds with different thoughts or ideas... but this seems irrational, because no human being just listens to random thoughts that pop up in their head, they have reasons for doing the stuff that they do.... So I'm still lost. If God is "in control", how far does this "control" go? If man has free will, then God cannot be in control! Yet a part of me wants to believe that God is in control, because it is comforting, and because the Bible seems to really emphasize this point. Honestly I get so much anxiety about this. I fear that God is somehow controlling everything, including me. I have had stuff happen to me or around me after prayer, e.g. I prayed for help and these Christians saw me and talked to me the same day. I prayed for help and I see a pamphlet for a conference called "Experiencing God". I ask for Jesus to reveal himself and soon after I find a pamphlet talking about Jesus' death. I've had so many experiences which point to God, as if God has placed these things in my life, but this brings the idea into my mind that God is controlling people.... I don't understand how some Christians say "God is in control" and don't seem to be afraid that it means He is literally controlling everything...
Please enlighten me
For a long time I've been trying to reconcile these two truths in my mind: God is in control and man has free will. I've read articles stating that our finite minds cannot understand how this is possible, yet we must accept them as twin truths. This doesn't make any sense in my logical mind! If God is in control, or in charge of my life, then what exactly IS he in control of? A large part of our lives is our interactions with others... so does this mean, for example, if I finish a job interview, and pray to get the job, that God will influence the employer to give me the job? But then is He bypassing his free will? The only way I imagine God can influence our external lives is by "prompting" people's minds with different thoughts or ideas... but this seems irrational, because no human being just listens to random thoughts that pop up in their head, they have reasons for doing the stuff that they do.... So I'm still lost. If God is "in control", how far does this "control" go? If man has free will, then God cannot be in control! Yet a part of me wants to believe that God is in control, because it is comforting, and because the Bible seems to really emphasize this point. Honestly I get so much anxiety about this. I fear that God is somehow controlling everything, including me. I have had stuff happen to me or around me after prayer, e.g. I prayed for help and these Christians saw me and talked to me the same day. I prayed for help and I see a pamphlet for a conference called "Experiencing God". I ask for Jesus to reveal himself and soon after I find a pamphlet talking about Jesus' death. I've had so many experiences which point to God, as if God has placed these things in my life, but this brings the idea into my mind that God is controlling people.... I don't understand how some Christians say "God is in control" and don't seem to be afraid that it means He is literally controlling everything...
Please enlighten me