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When I have said "... my car...." I am referring to a car that is usually the one I drive when I go somewhere but it does not actually belong to me. It is not stolen, I am allowed to drive it to school and stuff, but that phrasing - "my car" -...
I was thinking about redownloading and maybe going premium on Lumosity, a brain training app. I noticed the App Store description had a new feature about mindfulness training. I googled “mindfulness” and got definitions saying:
Is something like this bad/dangerous? Meditation or mindfulness...
So I was thinking about buying some music I used to listen to, for running or driving or whatever not just replaying it on youtube you know? But in looking up my favourite Chinese singer, he has a new song (or one I had not seen before) and the title was a red flag but then the lyrics confirm...
I’ve been kind of all over the place recently. I have felt off and on sick the past few days, and some peace but also stress. Sunday I went up to an altar call and was so nervous I looked down and felt like crying and also nauseous (if I remember right) and tired later. I waited a while too...
I have been struggling with some fear of anxiety and judgement lately. I got a tip at work that had “God loves you” written on it randomly from a stranger but I’ve still been somewhat stressed and uneasy. I read Ecclesiastes 5:1-7 (?) and got afraid of compulsive/foolish vowing thoughts and felt...
Today has been a bad day. I have felt anxious about condemnation and yet feel like my brain keeps wanting to pull out bad thoughts. I didn’t have time to duel anyone and rushed off campus to go to a study meeting with classmates and the professor. I nearly hit someone because the evening wave of...
It seems like I have a growing problem with bitterness, anger, depression, and reckless selfishness. I am overwhelmed with bad thoughts, overwhelmed by some of the complex theology I see here. I should be more mature than I am, sometimes I feel like I know nothing spiritually. People argue and...
I still have to clean my school files....
Anyway!
I condensed My Journey and The Roadtrip. I have kind of thought having a blog for spiritual things and less spiritual (as in, like school, or video games or whatever) was a bad thing, separating a spiritual side of life and aspects of everyday...
I sort of overheard/listened to a girl earlier explaining the story of Jesus, his disciples, and different people and stories from the gospels. It was something to think about, and playing chess with a guy I’d never met before he noticed one of my bracelets (one I was not wearing but showed him...
I have been worried about condemnation again. I keep having bad thoughts and sometimes it seems more like I think these things than things popping up from nowhere. I feel like these judgemental or sadistic thoughts or attitudes creep up and I don't act lovingly people like I should. I get very...
I feel sometimes hopeless. I feel a bit like I cannot remember my own past. I wonder what my testimony is, if I am saved, what happened at my baptism was it valid? I have the fear in my heart, “What if I’m one of those who just can’t believe?” or one who just won’t be saved. I feel that I sin...
I am unsure more and more it feels like. I worry about being hard of heart, not truly repentant or not truly having faith. I felt unworthy of communion and did not take it then cried for a reason I don’t know if I can articulate. I wonder sometimes if I should be re-baptized, but also if I can...
I have been dealing with doubt and unbelief recently. It makes me worry about my prayers, and I’ve had thoughts like, “How do I know I’m praying and not just saying words?” I can’t sleep well at night and feel sick and cold more often. I am afraid that I could be condemned. I would like to ask...
I dented my mom’s car and feel like a cold mess. I’ve hit the garage wall and that did not go over well, this is bad in a way I can’t exactly describe. I’ve damaged the car, and it was my fault, not like when someone scraped the truck my brother was using. The other truck was fine, I hit their...