Crashing

Today has been a bad day. I have felt anxious about condemnation and yet feel like my brain keeps wanting to pull out bad thoughts. I didn’t have time to duel anyone and rushed off campus to go to a study meeting with classmates and the professor. I nearly hit someone because the evening wave of traffic was already there and trying to get as far left as soon as possible I had my head turned left and accelerating to get in the gap before the next car. I didn’t see the black car in front of me brake. I inhaled suddenly and brakes but didn’t think I could stop in time, I did but this would have been my fault 100% and this little car (my parents’) could have seriously hurt me. I don’t even know how fast I was going. I made it here shaken to the meeting place and no one was here, my professor wasn’t aware of this group meeting, someone else told me it was yesterday, and the person whose information I was going on hasn’t responded but had told me today at that location. Coming home the gate was open but began to swing shut (somewhat slow, it is mechanized not blown by wind). I didn’t reach for my opener (which can force it back open even while it closes) I just steered away and kind of braced for a scrape. Now there are people in my house, I have homework, and I’d rather watch YouTube or play some yugioh (nobody to play with here though).