It's not that you are worthless, but that the jobs you are looking for do not fit with your gifts, OR the firms involved aren't able to recognise the worth that you have.
But it sounds like you are not able to believe that.
Do you want them to treat you like that?
How does it make you feel? Angry? Resigned?
If you actually were a dog you could make a fortune, since dogs can't use computers or write articulate posts.
Dogs are loyal, affectionate and can be trained. Different dogs have different abilities - some instinctively fetch, hunt, seek out and a number of other things. Dogs are used to help disabled people in many ways - guide dogs, hearing dogs, dogs for those with autism, dogs who have been trained to recognise epileptic symptoms and the start of a fit. Some dogs recognise tumours and can smell cancer. Other dogs are taken into hospitals for those with dementia, the elderly or the depressed to pat, stroke and make a fuss of. Dogs help the police to sniff out drugs and catch criminals and there are dogs in the army. Dogs are valuable, and great companions, to many people.
In other countries, dogs pull sledges and are part of rescue teams.
Which of those are you?
It's not your fault if the firm you are applying to can't see what you have to offer.
It is your fault if your words, or attitude, say "don't give me a chance, I'm useless/I'll blow it."
Neither I, nor 2 of my brothers, have degrees.
Failing to get a degree is not failure - giving up because you don't think you come up to someone else's standard; is.
I'm sure there is something you can do. What do you enjoy?
20 years of experience in what?
If the answer is "standing on my feet picking up heavy boxes" - you're strong and loyal.
You also know how to write a C.V.
No, not really. Only if you want it to be.
Have you tried doing some voluntary work; in a shop, care home, on a telephone helpline - even with an animal's charity, looking after badly treated pets? Most jobs will involve some sort of training, and in a year or two your C.V will say "volunteered at ......, did ...... and learnt skills of ......". You may even get a reference from the manager/charity director.
And how about looking at your job a different way? Not just "garbage" but "recycling"? Would you be allowed to take any of the bigger items home? Could you restore them; turn trash into cash?
Could you dispose with other types of garbage - help people get rid of the garbage in their lives by becoming a counsellor?
He didn't, he made someone in his image, Genesis 1:26-27.
YOU are made by God, in his image. And you were made with a purpose - to reflect his image, 2 Corinthians 3:18. HOW you reflect that image is up to you, and may depend on the gifts he has given you. But even if you never did any other job in your life, you can still reflect his image by BEING - being kind, good, pure, Christ-like etc.
Then let other people - and maybe doctors - help you until you can.
It may be that you are depressed, that's why you can't see any good in anything.
That's not a joke.
Why do you believe your life is a warning to others?
If you really believe your lack of qualifications have led to your current position, and that this COULD be a warning to others, like kids - why not go into schools and tell them? Surely any teacher would welcome a talk on "if you don't study and work hard, you may end up working in garbage"? Why not use your, apparent, warning of a life to help others? Write a book, maybe? It may never get published, but writing everything down could be therapeutic and help you to see more clearly.
It's not that you are worthless, but that the jobs you are looking for do not fit with your gifts, OR the firms involved aren't able to recognise the worth that you have.
But it sounds like you are not able to believe that.
Years ago in a Church group, we did a group thing where we tried to figure out each others gifts. I could not, and nor could anyone else, figure out if I had any 'gifts'. In the end a 20 year old next to me said "You must have the gift of accepting hospitality!".
If I have any gifts, I do not know what they are, or apparently how to use them, or how they would help in real life. It's been 41 years on this planet. I would expect I would have found something I'm good at by now.
Do you want them to treat you like that?
How does it make you feel? Angry? Resigned?
I don't. But the options are, stay here and work, or go somewhere else worse with lower pay. Resigned is the word. I felt resigned when I got the job to start with. I actually turned this job down twice, because I knew how this company was. But when you have a stack of bills, and no money, you have to work and be miserable. That's how life is. You must work no matter how terrible it is.
Which of those are you?
I'm the dog that smells cancers, since that's all I seem to find in life. Joking aside, that was the most interesting twist on my post I've ever seen. Impressive spin towards the positive.
It is your fault if your words, or attitude, say "don't give me a chance, I'm useless/I'll blow it."
One of the fascinating contradictions in my life, is that if I think the job will be good and I try for it, I blow it. If I hate the job, or don't want it, then I get it.
Let me give you an example. I got a job at a place running a circuit board building machine (surface mount pick and place machine). I loved the job. I worked 10-hour to 12-hour shifts for a month. The job was close to my house. I enjoyed everything I was doing.
They laid me off after working all those hours, and shown the door. Everyone was telling me "they just didn't have any work", but in reality I got a call from a recruiter for that same job. I told the guy they likely wouldn't hire me, but if he could just ask why they didn't want me. He didn't believe me, but called back "yeah they don't want you. Something about upsetting the apple cart". Never saw any apples or a cart in that building the whole time I was there.... but I must have tipped it over.
I have no idea why they got rid of me. But that's how my life goes. If I like the job, they fire me.
Then you spin it around. I'm working at an auto parts store. I *hate* that job. Absolutely hate it. Everyone thinks I'm brilliant. They keep asking if I want to work more hours, and I keep saying no I don't even want to work the hours that I am. I hated that job so much....
The manager of the store comes and offers me a management positions. That's how my life goes. The more I hate and despise the job, the more they want me to work it. The more I love the job, the more they kick me out.
The above story line has played out more times than I can even remember now. I hope you can forgive me if I'm a bit cynical now.
Failing to get a degree is not failure - giving up because you don't think you come up to someone else's standard; is.
I guess my point was that I don't hold it against other people, when my lack of skill and talent is entirely on me, not them. I don't have an entitlement belief system, that somehow I'm owed a middle class income or something.
If I really was worth more than this, someone out there would be paying me more money for what I do.
20 years of experience in what?
If the answer is "standing on my feet picking up heavy boxes" - you're strong and loyal.
You also know how to write a C.V.
That statement is misleading. I should say 20 years of working, not 'experience' because everyone asks 'in what?'. Just in working. Just doing stuff. I've had more than... I think I'm up to 37 different jobs now? Somewhere around there.
Have you tried doing some voluntary work; in a shop, care home, on a telephone helpline - even with an animal's charity, looking after badly treated pets?
Yes, I have done charity or voluntary work, more than a few times, although none of what you listed. Um... I have not ever thought to put that on a resume. That seems... I don't know... that makes me feel odd, to put charity work on a resume. Like 'look at me, I'm generous'. In fact, I don't even like to to tell people what charities I have supported, or how much, or most of the time that I even give to charity.
I'm the kind of guy that buys flowers for the mothers at my company, and does everything I can to hide who bought them. Have a tag that says "From Mega-Corp" or whatever, so they don't know I bought them. I don't like people knowing I'm doing something like that.
So you don't think that's a big deal to put charity work on a resume? Just rubs me the wrong way somehow.
That's not a joke.
Why do you believe your life is a warning to others?
If you really believe your lack of qualifications have led to your current position, and that this COULD be a warning to others, like kids - why not go into schools and tell them? Surely any teacher would welcome a talk on "if you don't study and work hard, you may end up working in garbage"? Why not use your, apparent, warning of a life to help others? Write a book, maybe? It may never get published, but writing everything down could be therapeutic and help you to see more clearly.
I do! One of the things this job does, is have teenagers come and work, usually during summer. I warn kids call the time "don't end up like me". All the time. I see people there with massive talent at stuff constantly. And most of those kids are already earning more than me.
But yeah, I tell them all the time, go get that internship, find a company that will pay for your training, get that certification, get your degree, and move out of here before you end up like me with no future, sitting around waiting for time to go by. I'd say I give that speech every week.