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[sampa]

I worked at a Sonic as my first official job when I turned 16 years old. My older sister was a roller skating carhop and she made a lot of money on tips, I was a fry cook and made a

Thanks this confirms what I was thinking I should have done and I will do next time. I really liked my strawberry milkshake but the lid kept popping off while I was driving. It was a complete mess. And not to mention the styrofoam that is used is not very environmentally friendly. I have at least one friend that refuses to take anything that has styrofoam on it. But I will probably be back as it really hit the spot for me. Probably better than five guys. I also like the atmosphere of the outdoor eating versus indoor. It almost makes me wonder if I should change my get together coming up since we will be in 1950s dresses. And this seems like a perfect retro venu.

Cancer ravaged him so bad he looked like a victim of a famine. I was called at 2am in the morning by my frantic sister to check to see if he was dead, just like I was called in the morning by my dad 4 years earlier to check my mom and see if she was also dea

I'm so sorry to hear. My dad also wasn't a bad State and died of a heart attack. My stepmother had so much guilt because she offered to take him to the hospital before leaving for work but he refused. And when she came home she found him dead.

writings he had on his computer he was talking about a dog that we adopted from a shelter that had been abused that after a year we were finally able to pet him that years later got cancer and we had to take him to be put to sleep he

had to take him to be put to sleep he wondered if he got cancer like that if people would care for him or not. It was like he predicted him getting cancer. I

That is strange. And interesting that you mentioned that because that's exactly what this guy told me. He said he had often wondered what would happen if he got cancer and if he would die of it. He wondered if he had a premonition or was predicting his own cancer. My father also predicted that he would die of a heart attack because his father had died at the age of 40 from a heart attack and also his aunt at 39 years old. He spent his 40s worried about passing of a heart attack but somehow he got himself out of that depressive State and started focusing on myself and my sister. The last two years of his life were incredible. I do know it's very possible to die of a heart attack but I am doing everything I can to be as healthy as possible. Even though heart attack runs on my father's side and my mother's side, I still feel like there's a possibility that I'll live to be a hundred years old. At least that's what I hope and I hope that it's a quality life. I want to play golf when I'm 90 years old. I want to run near the Grand canyon when I'm 70 years old. My fifties I want to focus on strength training. In my '80s I hope I have show stopping flowers that make people want to stop on the road and look. And in between all these things I hope that it's the Lord's will to marry and live out serving in our community. I guess I can at least dream and make goals and see what the Lord does.

 

[ReesePiece23]

I wouldn't wish insomnia on anyone

I'm probably at my most creative with insomnia. The abstract thought patterns I experience when in a sleep deprived state yield some interesting ideas that I wouldn't otherwise have.

If it goes too far though, then the abstractness of the thoughts just take me slowly around the houses, through gummy bear lane, the candlestick makers, the chocolate fireguard store, and the underwater smoke alarm specialist, en route to absolutely nowhere before starting the pointless journey all over again.

Fever dream levels basically.

 

[Sophrosyne]

hello @Sophrosyne

How Dee

 

[Sophrosyne]

Thanks this confirms what I was thinking I should have done and I will do next time. I really liked my strawberry milkshake but the lid kept popping off while I was driving. It was a complete mess. And not to mention the styrofoam that is used is not very environmentally friendly. I have at least one friend that refuses to take anything that has styrofoam on it. But I will probably be back as it really hit the spot for me. Probably better than five guys. I also like the atmosphere of the outdoor eating versus indoor. It almost makes me wonder if I should change my get together coming up since we will be in 1950s dresses. And this seems like a perfect retro venu.

I also have mixed emotions about styrofoam as it is better at keeping drinks cold and in humid environments less drippage from condensation but not having a lip rim to snap the lid on can be a mess. Sonic was very popular back in my childhood as they had good food and good value back then. I've never been to Five Guys didn't even know about them and looked them up and found we have 3 of them? but they are all 6 miles or more away from where I live while I have several Sonics within a few miles away one a long walk.

I'm so sorry to hear. My dad also wasn't a bad State and died of a heart attack. My stepmother had so much guilt because she offered to take him to the hospital before leaving for work but he refused. And when she came home she found him dead.

I wasn't totally shocked about my dad he was 70 and smoked excessively all his life and remarried another chain smoker after mom died he claimed his cancer wasn't from cigarettes and I don't buy that. My dad however prior to that was fairly healthy almost never sick from anything, no colds or flues that I remember something that I've seem to have inherited somewhat as I don't get sick much other than occasional allergies that are temporary due to I think mold mostly.

that is strange. And interesting that you mentioned that because that's exactly what this guy told me. He said he had often wondered what would happen if he got cancer and if he would die of it. He wondered if he had a premonition or was predicting his own cancer. My father also predicted that he would die of a heart attack because his father had died at the age of 40 from a heart attack and also his aunt at 39 years old. He spent his 40s worried about passing of a heart attack but somehow he got himself out of that depressive State and started focusing on myself and my sister. The last two years of his life were incredible. I do know it's very possible to die of a heart attack but I am doing everything I can to be as healthy as possible. Even though heart attack runs on my father's side and my mother's side, I still feel like there's a possibility that I'll live to be a hundred years old. At least that's what I hope and I hope that it's a quality life. I want to play golf when I'm 90 years old. I want to run near the Grand canyon when I'm 70 years old. My fifties I want to focus on strength training. In my '80s I hope I have show stopping flowers that make people want to stop on the road and look. And in between all these things I hope that it's the Lord's will to marry and live out serving in our community. I guess I can at least dream and make goals and see what the Lord does.

Luckily there is no heart attacks in either side of my parents families at all the women (with the exception of my mom) live to mid 80s to my grandmother at 94. As for predicting things you can't fight genetic dispositions on your own totally it takes God's help but I believe that as with God all things are possible (faith) having fear of something can bring it into being just like faith likewise can do so. Fear can put incredible stress on the body causing the immune system to break down along with greatly increasing the chemistry of the body that is for fight and flight responses but rather harmful for but short term. One could say that the effect of fear on the body long term mimics drug addiction in that the body has to fight to maintain normal operating parameters.
With my father dead at almost 71 and mom dead at 65 I'm at times struggling to try and think about making 80 personally but I've considerably more fit than my parents were at my age and think I'm more fit than many guys around me even 10 years younger perhaps because I kind of am sort of hyper always ending up doing several things at once. Keep with the gardening as I garden a little now sort of and it is a great stress reducing tool.
I think that the biggest fear I have about living to be what I consider a goal.... 85 is will there be a world that is worth living in at that time as everything seems to be teetering on chaos right now it is seemingly like the balance of good and evil is resting on a razor's edge and from reading the Bible I've seen that when people get (on average) overwhelmingly evil God does something about it and the book of Revelation comes to mind.
I actually drive to a park to walk amongst the flowers where my mom used to volunteer to help when she was in her 30s and 40s I think.... as a kid I loved Christmas lights and I consider flowers as natures Christmas celebration with the tremendous variety and colors you can forget about the evil in the world for just awhile... and even perhaps watch a smile from someone who sees a flower and the power showers them with God's love.

 

[sampa]

back then. I've never been to Five Guys didn't even know about them and looked them up and found we have 3 of them? but they are all 6 miles or more away from where I live while I have several Sonics within a few miles away one a long

I travel to far distances because in this town there's a lot of things we don't have. It's been growing and finally has a Starbucks as of 5 years ago. This town has a reputation of being the town where time stood still. Lots of old architecture and mom and pop businesses. City people usually complain that there are not enough restaurants and variety.

wasn't totally shocked about my dad he was 70 and smoked excessively all his life and remarried another chain smoker after mom died he claimed his cancer wasn't from cigarettes and I don't buy that. My dad however prior to that was

'70s seems kind of young but not as young as my father was at 58. But he's still outlived his father that died at 40. So I am thankful and grateful but my sister it's hard having a four-year-old and not having a grandfather on her side. Or a grandmother. They try to live healthy and have explained to my nephew, that they don't want to end up the same.

Keep with the gardening as I garden a little now sort of and it is a great stress reducing tool

I really do think so. Getting some dirt on your fingers and seeing green growth day by day.

I think that the biggest fear I have about living to be what I consider a goal.... 85 is will there be a world that is worth living in at that time as everything seems to be teetering on chaos

I would think the same and have thought the same at times but I know many generations before thought the exact same thing. There's nothing new under the sun. We go through cycles. I think the more that you look for kindness and people taking actions of morality, the more you're going to see it.

Fear can put incredible stress on the body causing the immune system to break down along with greatly increasing the chemistry of the body that is for fight and flight responses

I totally think so! I believe in 2011 that is what led to my systemic lupus happening and kidneys. Also possibly along with getting the flu vaccine. As my body never did well with it each year that I was required by the Air Force.

I actually drive to a park to walk amongst the flowers where my mom used to

Sounds lovely! I hope you can get out there soon again as the weather and time allows.

 

[Sophrosyne]

I travel to far distances because in this town there's a lot of things we don't have. It's been growing and finally has a Starbucks as of 5 years ago. This town has a reputation of being the town where time stood still. Lots of old architecture and mom and pop businesses. City people usually complain that there are not enough restaurants and variety.

I live in a large city here and at times they actually have people bring in new restaurants to see how they will do we have them everywhere expecially in the shopping district areas. We finally got a Costco here but the idiots who decided where to locate it put it about 10 miles from the center of the city here and I have a Sams card. I picked up some bags of potting soil the other day for "dirt cheap"..... well about 1/3 off I figure.

'70s seems kind of young but not as young as my father was at 58. But he's still outlived his father that died at 40. So I am thankful and grateful but my sister it's hard having a four-year-old and not having a grandfather on her side. Or a grandmother. They try to live healthy and have explained to my nephew, that they don't want to end up the same.

His father died at 80 and my mom's dad at 77 or 78. Not sure both being in a world war was a partial reason as I think one was physically damaged the other psychologically damaged and which one is worse? hmmm. I try to keep healthy myself but as I hate cooking and finances don't allow me to spend a lot on food I do ok. I did lose about 25 lbs awhile back but regained about 8-10 of it but likely that is because I had a job doing some carpentry and hauling 2x12x16ft boards around will even have a 600 lb gorilla going "ugh". I think today that even organic food isn't what food used to be and also I think there are other things we eat/drink plus continuing genetic degredation over continuing generations that likely increase people being less resistant to illness than ever before.... it is like DNA is starting to unravel and with all the perversion and indoctrination people are abusing themselves even more both mentally, and spiritually (unknowingly).

I really do think so. Getting some dirt on your fingers and seeing green growth day by day.

If I had excess funds I would consider getting a time lapse camera setup and record plants growing and maybe upload some examples to the internet as I've seen some plants grow up to 2 inches a day you can't see them watching but come back in a few hours and you may notice a difference.

I would think the same and have thought the same at times but I know many generations before thought the exact same thing. There's nothing new under the sun. We go through cycles. I think the more that you look for kindness and people taking actions of morality, the more you're going to see it.

Evil doesn't change, and people still fall for the same tricks as without knowing history you are guaranteed to repeat it. I really pity children growing up these days and truly wonder if the stress of society now is going to be very harmful to them especially without God in their lives to fortify them.

I totally think so! I believe in 2011 that is what led to my systemic lupus happening and kidneys. Also possibly along with getting the flu vaccine. As my body never did well with it each year that I was required by the Air Force.

I didn't get the vaccine as I wasn't worried about less than a half of a percent of death by covid, I have high resistance to flues and viruses likely I've already had covid several times without symptoms as I've been around plenty of people out shopping. It is quite possible you have had a negative reaction to the vaccines as more and more people investigating things are finding out the numbers of issues are larger than reported.

Sounds lovely! I hope you can get out there soon again as the weather and time allows.

Yes they had a show at the park with bonzai trees and flowers and plants the other weekend that was pretty good although the clubs that were involved and member participation was way down as many people quit attending club meetings due to Covid I think that they will start trickling back in and next year will be great. We have also in the past had some really horrible weather in 2010-11 record heat and record low amount of rain. It seems almost back to normal now we are getting rain more and rain is going on for hours even a day or so when back then raise blasted through 50mph and was gone in 30 minutes leaving a steam bath in its wake.
Many gardens also lost plants winter of the year before last when it hit -18 degrees here also. Things seem closer to normal now although summer seems to have come early we are in the low 90s/high 80s lately now which is a little higher than normal.

 

[Sophrosyne]

I wouldn't wish insomnia on anyone

I was once sick and had outsomnia, that is I couldn't stay awake kept napping like I was an 80 year old coot.

 

[sampa]

large city here and at times they actually have people bring in new restaurants to see how they will do we have them everywhere expecially in the shopping district areas. We finally got a Costco here but the idiots who

Sounds like you have a lot of nice convenience. Costco is a 45-minute drive from where I live. Probably either direction. Not worth it for me at this time though.

His father died at 80 and my mom's dad at 77 or 78. Not sure both being in a world war was a partial reason as I think one was physically damaged the other

Sounds like you have a good chance to live a lot longer.

allow me to spend a lot on food I do ok. I did lose about 25 lbs awhile back but regained about 8-10 of it but likely that is because I had a job doing some carpentry and hauling 2x12x16ft

Congratulations on the weight loss!

think today that even organic food isn't what food used to be and also I think there are other things we eat/drink plus continuing genetic degredation over continuing generations that likely

You probably are right. Growing things yourself I think is a better option. But I still think that there is more nutrition in whole foods than there is any of the processed stuff. And probably better than going out to eat. I feel the difference when I make sure to get my veggies in my meals.

growing and maybe upload some examples to the internet as I've seen some plants grow up to 2 inches a day you can't see them watching but come back in a few hours and you may notice a difference.

That would be a fun project! Not the same as actually surrounding your eyes with the green. There is something about the air and energy surrounding living things.

It is quite possible you have had a negative reaction to the vaccines as more and more people investigating things are finding out the numbers of issues are larger than reported

I've only had negative reactions to the flu vaccine and the covid-19 vaccine. Other vaccines I just have had maybe so we're missing the arm or something. Nothing negative like not being able to pick up a glass of water because of pain in my wrist. Or going to the emergency room because my blood pressure is 175.

to Covid I think that they will start trickling back in and next year will be great. We have also in the past had some really horrible weather in 2010-11 record heat and record low amount of rain. It seems almost back to normal now we are

I hope someday you can volunteer there like your mother and enjoy the same thing she did and community.

 

[sampa]

Wow! I feel like I stepped back into the early 90s. I had to pick up at JCPenney because the tops I'm looking for I can't find at Target anymore and searched high and low and JCPenney seem to be at the place online that I could find it. The JCPenney I grew up with closed in 2004 or so.

 

[Sophrosyne]

Sounds like you have a lot of nice convenience. Costco is a 45-minute drive from where I live. Probably either direction. Not worth it for me at this time though.

That is why I like living in a larger city as you spend less time driving to get needed things and I like to walk to stores and shop when I don't have a lot of stuff to buy and I have several grocery stores and restaurants less than a half mile away here.

Sounds like you have a good chance to live a lot longer.

I go back and forth thinking I won't live longer but hoping I do at times even just live for the day to not have to choose either.

Congratulations on the weight loss!

For guys keeping the gut under control helps with heart issues and also excessive weight can be an issue with sugar control too.

You probably are right. Growing things yourself I think is a better option. But I still think that there is more nutrition in whole foods than there is any of the processed stuff. And probably better than going out to eat. I feel the difference when I make sure to get my veggies in my meals.

My diet when I lost the weight had no veggies in it.... eggs and diluted ice tea. I've been reading and in some people and some cases veggies can actually cause problems. I've read up a little on carnivore diet and some people who have serious issues like arthritis and auto immune disorders get a lot better on the diet. I still like veggies but realize that decent meat is good too.

That would be a fun project! Not the same as actually surrounding your eyes with the green. There is something about the air and energy surrounding living things.

The only thing I don't like about gardening is the bugs as I still don't know what all of them are but I found out a bug today that is a leaf cutter which can be harmless on mature plants but baby plants they can set them back in growth a lot or even kill them. Having to also figure out the beneficial insects that eat pests on your plants is a task too. If you have flowers and a bug eats them before they can bloom it can be very irritating.

I've only had negative reactions to the flu vaccine and the covid-19 vaccine. Other vaccines I just have had maybe so we're missing the arm or something. Nothing negative like not being able to pick up a glass of water because of pain in my wrist. Or going to the emergency room because my blood pressure is 175.

I think the book is still open long term on the effects of these vaccines as there are several companies that made them differently than each other. Some people have had long term negative effects from the vaccines. One of my issues is that if you have a bad effect you cannot sue the drug companies..... at all because of the government gave them immunity from that.

I hope someday you can volunteer there like your mother and enjoy the same thing she did and community.

I probably won't be terribly interested right now..... freakin sauna lately outside I probably wouldn't have to water the plants just lean over and drip sweat on them would suffice.

 

[Sophrosyne]

Wow! I feel like I stepped back into the early 90s. I had to pick up at JCPenney because the tops I'm looking for I can't find at Target anymore and searched high and low and JCPenney seem to be at the place online that I could find it. The JCPenney I grew up with closed in 2004 or so.

I think we had 3 of them at one time..... only one left now. I have bought clothes there in the past when prices were good. When I was growing up I had nice clothes that my mom got for me, she knew the best clothes and shopped at thrift stores at times looking for antiques and picking up $30 shirts for a few dollars. I still stop in the stores to look for hard to find items that I would have to shop on ebay to get. I've picked up electronics for about 10 cents on the dollar that were perfectly fine after cleaning them up and a few out of print movies and CDs that would cost from $15-$20 or more for a buck or so. Sadly most of the good thrift stores moved 5 miles farther away from me not on any shopping route as I shop in sort of large circles stopping at a half dozen stores along the way getting a little of everything to save time and gas making it not worth the expense as most of the time I don't find anything I want. Some thrift stores have 99 cent days on stale clothes... that is stock that doesn't sell and has been sitting for a month or two taking up space. I got a few nice jackets and some nice flannel shirts for 99 cents and a raincoat at one for $4 that is almost like armor it is pretty solid with a stow away hood. One other nice thing is that the variety of colors, styles, and brands is often huge more than any one or even 5 stores has but you would have to shop regularly to find what you like. I've grown fond of brighter colors these days like reds yellow orange brighter greens and blues and purples. The funny thing is when I've worn some colors I ends up getting mistaken for a store employee at places that have similar colors like going to Home Depot wearing an orange shirt or Lowes wearing a blue one... go figure.

 

[sampa]

That is why I like living in a larger city as you spend less time driving to get needed things and I like to walk to stores and shop when I don't have a lot of stuff to buy and I have several grocery stores and restaurants less than a half mile away here

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[sampa]

The last few days I've been thinking about .

 

[GodAndChocolateVanilla]

My Shea Butter arrived in the mail today! I love it.

 

[RileyG]

Good afternoon all

 

[public hermit]

I turn 50 tomorrow. I'm not upset about it. It's a nice round number and I am at a good place in life. It has been one of the toughest winters I've ever been through, and none of it was weather related. God is good in spite of the ups and downs, life and death. There is no way I would be in this place, with this peace, at this moment were it not for the faith I share with y'all. This I know.

ETA: If you don't share my faith, I still think you're awesome and should blow up a black balloon in honor of me tomorrow.

 

[RileyG]

I turn 50 tomorrow. I'm not upset about it. It's a nice round number and I am at a good place in life. It has been one of the toughest winters I've ever been through, and none of it was weather related. God is good in spite of the ups and downs, life and death. There is no way I would be in this place, with this peace, at this moment were it not for the faith I share with y'all. This I know.

Happy birthday and God bless

 

[Sophrosyne]

yes it's different for everyone. It sounds like the type of place I lived in when I lived in a city of a million in Japan for a year. I could accomplish so much in an hour and a half lunch walking everywhere. Department store stacked on top of each other 10 floors.

The city here is pretty spread out once you get away from the shopping district and downtown for the most part and I've purposely chosen an area that I have places close to me to walk to that encourages me to walk more. It has been miserable and humid the last few weeks so walking other than needed has been out.

I think it depends on blood type but there's nothing proven about that. Type a are vegetarian and type O or meat eaters. So it's possible that the health is affected best by your blood type. I'm a type a so vegetables and a plant-based diet have done well for me. And I have also found that having an autoimmune disease having less processed foods, sugar it meets has been more optimal. Water is the biggest thing!! Less caffeine.

I think I'm blood type A and I've found that I do well with not too many veggies and meat tends to be fine for me and being financially strapped I do eat processed foods more than I should I've cut back on carbs a bunch like breads and cakes but I do need to eat sweet stuff at times. I've cut back to almost no caffeine other than some chocolate and diluted tea. I've found if I eat too much veggies it can speed my digestion up too much at times while too much meat slows it down so often a balance as I tend to crave what I need other than junk food. Since I water tea down to less than half strength with half the normal sugar I find now that excessively sweet stuff tastes almost too rich now. I do drink water when I'm working away from home and often take a bottle of water when I go somewhere. I do vaguely remember shopping at a department store downtown that was like 6 or 8 floors after Christmas as a child don't quite remember the name of the store for sure they are long gone now.

That all comes in time when you're ready. I'm still working at understanding that 11 years later. But only in small chunks.

I'm currently fighting cane borers now.... they have attacked several of my plants the pests have probably wiped out 2 of them luckily they were new baby plants that are extras.

Maybe you can't sue them but you are able to file with the vaccine court. Which is what I currently am doing and hopefully get reimbursed for my expenses. It's a long process.

Oh I'm sure there is a process to attempt such but I think the money from the suit won't come from the drug companies but from the government which means it could take a long time and not be an overwhelming amount. A lot of people likely wouldn't bother with the process and if it needed a lawyer likely they wouldn't do it
on commission.

that's where I currently shop. I actually just stopped off at a Goodwill and was looking for a belt to go with one of my dresses for a 50s get together.

I didn't exist in the 50s to get together with anyone

That's too bad. I've lived in a city before and it affected me adversely with my health. I really need Green space. I can't stand neighbors too close.

I'm sort of the opposite..... as I find myself needing to socialize at times as my default tendency is to be withdrawn and introverted I have to constantly force myself to be more outgoing and engage with people as when I don't my mental health suffers I can become depressed and more lazy etc and then my mind ravages me inside....... probably why I can talk people's ears off if I don't put them in a coma by sheer boredom first.

 

[Sophrosyne]

The last few days I've been thinking about coincidences and when they happen with certain people. There was a guy 2 years ago that we had so many things in common. His grandmother had the same name as me. She like the same color of yellow. My good friend I was running with her dogs had the same name as his. Her name was the same name as his ex-girlfriend. The list went on it was so strange day by day all the coincidences and every time that I was thinking of them they called me or text.
So lately I've been thinking about two people, I'm not sure how it has been triggered. And recently a friend and coworker that I go running with told me that her new trainer she is hiring and follows on Instagram. His name has the first name of the guy that I had all the coincidences with and his last name is the same as the other guy that I've been thinking about. I had to pause for a second because I wondered what was going to happen next. It seems like when I have had strange coincidences like that there are a bunch of others to follow.

Stuff like that can happen, as there is 7 billion people on the planet and about 1/3 of a billion in the US alone and unless someone has a very uncommon name and a lot different age range there is a list of popular names parents choose from to name their child at the time that often has a lot of people around the same age with the same first name. My first name used to not be very common I rarely saw anyone else that had it but it isn't rare. I went to a school once that in one class and only that class there was another person with my first name..... and a third person also. I've never come across anyone else after that with my first name in person but there is a few that I've seen online with it etc. I do think however that at times the Holy Spirit does sort of encourage you to be somewhere at a certain time to come across a certain person for the glory of God that is more than a coincidence.

 

[Sophrosyne]

I turn 50 tomorrow. I'm not upset about it. It's a nice round number and I am at a good place in life. It has been one of the toughest winters I've ever been through, and none of it was weather related. God is good in spite of the ups and downs, life and death. There is no way I would be in this place, with this peace, at this moment were it not for the faith I share with y'all. This I know.

ETA: If you don't share my faith, I still think you're awesome and should blow up a black balloon in honor of me tomorrow.

6 is a rounder number than 5 it has been a rough several years for me and when it was -18 here a few winters ago and several other days well below freezing that was tough trying to make sure water lines didn't freeze and leave me unable to take a hot shower to warm up..... I got to have my shower almost every day else I don't feel like a human being more like a zombie or something.