@Mary7 and
@Kajiki, one thing that you will find as you research Orthodoxy is that the people on this message board are some of the most caring people imaginable...all of the members on here genuinely care about your spiritual development. I honestly found their guidance and Christian love to be a very comforting thing when I was in your shoes. Honestly, if it were not for the Orthodox members of this forum, I would probably still be wallowing in a state of confusion at my old church (a group of people I still greatly admire, but disagree with on theology).
I hope that
@gurneyhalleck1 does not mind, but I want to share on small sentence that he wrote to me in a private message at the tail end of 2014:
"Orthodoxy would be BETTER with you!"
Wow...this was like getting struck with an arrow in my soul.
I had long been pulled towards Eastern Orthodoxy, but the Christian love that came forth from this message was like nothing I had ever experienced before. As a Catholic, nobody seemed to care one way or another about my spiritual development (I had to teach myself about the faith after being poorly catechized as a teenager), and when Protestants asked me to join their churches it seemed like all they cared about was inflating their numbers before moving on to the next person.
When Gurney said that Orthodoxy would be better with me, he whether intentionally or not, started my conversion process towards the Orthodox Church. It has been three years since he wrote me that message, and I can confirm to you after officially joining the Orthodox Church, that I most certainly made the right decision.
Therefore, I want each of you to know that Orthodoxy would be BETTER with you as a part of it as well!
Please do follow the direction that God leads you, but if the holy spirit leads you to Orthodoxy, we would be blessed to have you.