Hello Stillgods
May you ask God how to handle your situation with pure motives ; and to handle things the right way. Understand that God knows that we are prone to making mistakes; and that God is a God of understanding and mercy. May you understand that you should know that God is with you as a believer in the Lord Jesus Christ, may you ask God to help you by the spirit of God that lives with-in you to have peace, mercy, forgiveness, humility, forbearance, love, joy, and thankfulness in your life even through a difficult situation.
Remember as a believer you should be reminded God is greater than our hearts and knows all things and is forgiving, and merciful and God is with you if you believe and trust in Him, may the grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with you, the love of God, and the fellowship of the holy spirit.