Overwhelming me.

[EbonNelumbo]

My aunt, who I was so incredibly close to, died 10 years ago on the 16th. It's a day I will never forget, and one that never forgets to torture me. She was my world away, everything, and on this anniversary I find myself longing for just one more time with her.

I promised her I'd finish college, but so far I'm only half done and 23 years old with about an additional 6k in debt because of interest, so no hope of returning. I miss her so much, and I am struggling a lot because of it. I try to think that she's in heaven, not hurting anymore, because I know how much she suffered when she was here, but I cannot do anything but find myself selfishly wishing she was here

Please pray, because I feel like I'm really fading.

 

[tillyanne]

I'm sorry about your aunt. Grief is a strange thing.
Are there any nice traditions you do on her anniversary, like visiting her grave or eating at her favourite restaurant?
I'm sure she would be proud of you despite college. There were circumstances neither of you could forsee.

Was she a christian?

 

[EbonNelumbo]

Yes she was a Christian. My grandmother, her sister, led her to Christ months before she died of stomach cancer. I am visiting her grave tomorrow and leaving her some violets...her name was Violet.

 

[tillyanne]

then your longing will one day be fulfilled. But I know it still hurts so much now. I'm praying for you.

 

[Lotuspetal_uk]

Just said a prayer for you Oddbeani.

Please accept my sincere condolences

 

[EverMoreMyHeart]

Your in my prayers. I know what your feeling. My stepdad and I were very close, he passed 6 years ago. It was a struggle. He was a Christian, so that helped me get through the grief. To know that he's in a better place with no more pain. Im here for you.

 

[Ariel]

I am so sorry. It is hard to lose someone you dearly love, I know this is not easy.

Praying for you. (((hug)))

 

[Jo1]

Hi Hallee im so sorry to hear that and to hear your hurtingUr aunt would be truely proud of you im sure.Try not to be hard on yourself ((((HUG))) I know its hard not to be at times. Uve been doing your best and she loved you greatly, Im sure because you are a wonderful lady. . As in wanting your grandmother back, I dont think is selfish when my nan died a couple of months ago, I was just so angry with God he took I felt he just took away someone I loved. I wanted her back you know. She became a Christian at the last minute which I truely believe. Im happy that shes with God and everything, but I know it still hurts you know because I want her to still be here
I cant tell you when it will stop hurting.
Just small things like going into a garden centre and thinking nan would like this and looking through her photos. I dont ever want to forget her.
I wish I could just give you a BIG HUG. God bless u.
Know my thoughts and prayers are with you. All my love.
Love Joxxx