I was on lexapro but stopped. I am now back on meds which include a SSRI and a medicine for OCD. Started them again 3 weeks ago. Neither of them are helping me.
Prescription pills that treat psychological problems have similar effects to illegal drugs(= opium/opiod, heroin, cocaine, methamphetamine, etc), alcohol, nicotine, caffeine, etc, ie they damage the brain and cause addiction/dependency after daily use for more than a month.
....... Best to avoid any kind of prescription psychotropic pills because God did not create us to need them. Temporary use to alleviate a crisis/stress is OK. Those who are not too deeply-addicted can try the Tapering-Off method to quit being addicted.
So, likely you have brain damage or brain chemistry alteration and have been experiencing withdrawal symptoms from the prescription pills, which can include depression or low emotions, suicidal thoughts, lethargy, anxiety, racing mind, etc.
....... Try to not lose faith in Jesus Christ/God throughout your present spiritual struggle. Other Gentile Christians have also gone through something similar as yours and escaped unscathed, ie still alive and kicking.
Lexapro is an anti-depressant. Weed and alcohol produce euphoria/high, calmness, mental relaxation, etc. Suddenly stopping taking weed or alcohol causes depression. Maybe what you have been doing with your medication is trying to put out a fire with oil, ie your mental problems exacerbated = the doctors profit more.
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In normal people, their brains begin to secrete more stimulating neurotransmitters when the sun rises in the morning(=triggered by light sensors in the eyes), eg serotonin, dopamine, adrenaline, acetyl choline, etc which serve to elevate mood, improve mental concentration, alertness, increase energy level and muscle strength, etc, in order to prepare the body for a day of physical activity to earn their livelihood(=in ancient times, it was farming, hunting, fishing, etc) or to start the work-day.
.......Conversely, their brains begin to secrete more sedating neurotransmitters when the sun sets at night, eg GABA, endorphin(=painkiller and anti-depressant), melatonin(=sleepiness), etc; which serve to slow down(=inhibit) and calm the mind, relax the muscles, numb down any pain/depression, etc, in order to prepare the body for a night of restful sleep.
Psychotropic drugs are artificial analogues of these natural neuroT's produced by the brain, ie drugs mimic neuroT's. Alcohol, heroin, morphine, oxycodone(=opiod painkiller), anxiolytics/sleeping pills, anesthetics, etc are sedatives. Caffeine, nicotine, methamphetamine/ice, cocaine, etc are stimulants.
.......Such artificial drugs cause tempting emotions of euphoria or total calmness and addiction/dependency when they are wrongly and excessively used. Eg Opiod painkillers, anti-anxiety pills and sleeping pills should be taken at the prescribed dosage and for not more than 3 weeks.
Also, children of alcoholics(and/or drug-addicts) will inherit alcoholism(= born with altered or damaged DNA/brains, eg crack-babies and meth-babies) and will grow up to experience the associated withdrawal symptoms = abnormal or defective personality. The withdrawal symptoms of alcoholism are symptoms of an over-active, uncalm and over-sensitive brain = nervousness/anxieties, sweaty palms, muscle tics, over-thinking, difficulty falling asleep/insomnia, paranoia, delusions, etc.
This is bc alcohol(and also prescription anxiolytics, depressant, sleeping pills, etc) works by slowing down brain activity, calming the person, relaxing muscles and numbing pain, resulting in sedation, anxiolysis, mental relaxation, elimination of social inhibition, slowed muscle coordination, painlessness, etc.
.......Over-consumption of alcohol result in drunkenness(=brain becomes too slow and too calm) and eventually a comatosed sleep(brain activity stopped) and waking up with hangover headaches.
Alcohol, being an analogue of the brain's own naturally-produced neuroT's(=GABA, endorphin, melatonin, etc). When consumed daily and long term(= more than 1 month), it will result in the brain stopping the production of its own neuroTs = the body's/brain's negative-feedback response system. This results in addiction or dependency, ie the altered/damaged-brain requires alcohol in order to function normally.
Once addicted, alcoholics or the descendants of alcoholics(or drug-addicts) should remain on a maintenance dose of alcohol or anxiolytic pills, in order to stave off the terrible withdrawal symptoms(= Delirium Tremens). This is similar to a Type2 diabetic, who has damaged pancreas, being "addicted/dependent" on daily doses of life-sustaining insulin to survive for the rest of his/her life, in order for the body to function normally, wrt blood glucose level; if not...
The other alternative is for the alcoholics to keep themselves off alcohol and become social recluse since their brains cannot function normally without alcohol. Their life will be filled with withdrawal symptoms, eg an uncalm and over-active mind(= nervousness/anxiety).
Often, alcoholics and drug addicts may replace their addiction with another addictive drug like prescription pills, nicotine, caffeine, cocaine, etc, which is not the same as being really cured of addiction or being fully rehabilitated.
Bear in mind that the average adult body eliminates alcohol at a constant rate of about 30ml per hour. What does this mean.?
.......1 bottle of red wine(=750ml at 13% concentration of alcohol) has about 90ml of alcohol. Drinking 1 bottle of wine at 1 go will leave the body with more than 60ml of alcohol in the bloodstream during the 1st hour. This enhances the calming or sedating effects of alcohol that has been consumed, compared to just drinking 2 glasses of red wine(=no kick). That is why many alcoholics go for binge-drinking, in order to get more "bang"(effects) out of it, ie drinking 2-3 bottles of beer at one sitting.
The body's natural Fight-or-Flight response can also affect normal people, addicts and the descendants of addicts, depending on their life choices, ie may result in Bipolar Disorder or cycles of mania and depression, if they choose an outgoing lifestyle and job description.
.......This naturally built-in F-o-F response is to cater for emergency situations, eg stumbling upon a tiger while hunting in the jungle. This response enables the person to either flee from or fight off the tiger by giving him/her superhuman-strength, -energy, -concentration, -confidence, -painlessness, -alertness, -elevated mood, -etc.
If used smartly and judiciously(=no over-consumption), alcoholics, drug-addicts and smokers can live quite long, eg Paul McCartney, Mick Jagger, etc.. Suddenly, skipping the prescribed medication or going cold turkey on drugs/alcohol may be more risky and/or life-threatening, eg make rash life decisions, brain haemorrhage/stroke or heart failure.
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Of course, God/Jesus can also heal drug addiction or any other disease/disorder but normally they are rare occurences except during the very important ministry of Moses and Jesus Christ.
Sins/evil-deeds/law-breaking often lead to calamities, terror, sickness, demon-possession, etc and early death.(DEUT.28:15, 1COR.5:5 & 11:30, 1JOHN.5:16) God's/Jesus's power of healing the above is similar to President Trump's power to pardon convicted criminals who have repented/rehabilitated. Such powers are rarely exercised, ie God and the POTUS often just allow the Law to takes its own course = sinners/criminals often reap what they have sown or karma is a beetch.
P S - Another medication to avoid long term use is steroids(= hormones), eg betasone, methasone, prednisone, etc for anti-inflammation and anti-rejection. Also birth-control pills = the pills are fattening due to increased appetite.