He told me last night, I replied, no thats no true, how do I deny you? As I was thinking if someone asked me if He was Lord I would definetly say yes even if it was death. He said through my actions and my words. Just procaliming him Lord is not enough. I was suprised at first, but then it was obvious. Ive backslid and sat for a while. Ive just kept letting my flesh hold me back I guess. This makes me more depressed hearing this. Though I still know God is leading me as little as submit to Him. Please pray for me, I need christian friends to hang out with were I live. I have none which is a big reason of my backsliding, not that I couldnt be firm alone, but christian friends make it so much easier. Like coals someone told me, together theres a fire but take one out it goes cold. Also Ive gottin into old addictions. Ive finally applied for this job God wanted to me and got a interview, so I fell hopeful about that, get me a jump start to living for Christ again. Thank you.