My husband doesn't believe in counselling.
If I told anyone it would be over because I would not feel safe being at home with him.
Every time I try to correct him or talk to him if I think he is doing something wrong he says it's the devil talking through me. What is that ? ????
Even now I found out he's been recording what's been happening too note form. But last December he threatened to divorce me told me to pack my things as we were arguing and was angry cause I wouldn't erase my notes.
Sad to say I don't trust him.
He looks at me with disdain at times, wonders how the Lord could have given him this wife then becomes all loving once we said sorry and then I am expected to behave as if nothing happened and be intimate even if I am not ready because he will take offence and get angry.
I am tired. I feel as if either I don't belong in this world cause I don't fit in or this world is turning out to be a place that I don't understand. Or that there might be something wrong with me.
At times I question the Lord and ask Him if He sees me the way my husband does, if He agrees cause my husband seems to think he is in the right so much. I have not heard him say the Lord told him to stop calling me names.
He said something along the lines as I am due for a humbling from the Lord cause I didn't agree with something someone did, I thought it was wrong.
If I told anyone it would be over because I would not feel safe being at home with him.
Every time I try to correct him or talk to him if I think he is doing something wrong he says it's the devil talking through me. What is that ? ????
Even now I found out he's been recording what's been happening too note form. But last December he threatened to divorce me told me to pack my things as we were arguing and was angry cause I wouldn't erase my notes.
Sad to say I don't trust him.
He looks at me with disdain at times, wonders how the Lord could have given him this wife then becomes all loving once we said sorry and then I am expected to behave as if nothing happened and be intimate even if I am not ready because he will take offence and get angry.
I am tired. I feel as if either I don't belong in this world cause I don't fit in or this world is turning out to be a place that I don't understand. Or that there might be something wrong with me.
At times I question the Lord and ask Him if He sees me the way my husband does, if He agrees cause my husband seems to think he is in the right so much. I have not heard him say the Lord told him to stop calling me names.
He said something along the lines as I am due for a humbling from the Lord cause I didn't agree with something someone did, I thought it was wrong.
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