I am living with my husband blames me for the problems in our marriage.
He calls me stupid dumb lazy idiot pig etc...that I never amounted to anything. That even people who know me think I am dumb. That my family are losers. On so on. He says often people didn't want him to marry me but he did.
He often will say he prays for me.
I told him nothing will change unless he prays for God to change him, not me.
He calls me lesbian gay cause he says I am cold. It's hard to warm up when the day before he was calling me names or is rough to me.
Monday he was upset that the food was not ready. He said I was taking too long and that the kitchen was a mess. I usually clean as I go and also afterwards. Some things I had put into the dishwasher already, washed the pan but there were things on the counter. I was making his favorite soup as a surprise in addition to the regular meal. He expects it to be clean. I used to be very disorganized and messy but I am better now.
He starts calling me gay.....etc....idiot and other things to put me down.
So I got upset and threw the knife in the sink. He grabbed me by the collar of my sweater lifted it and we went backwards 5 feet. And he put his fist near my face. He thought he had torn my sweater but it was just the sound of the zipper going down as he twisted the neck.
I had a bruise on my hand trying I guess to remove his hand. My gold necklace broke and I had marks from the necklace on my neck on both sides. The marks left in about a half hour but I did take photos. The bruise on my hand is still sensitive.
He said if I could have scratched the sink or the knife could have bounced and hit him.
He wasn't in front of the sink but 2 feet to the left, same side I threw it from. But as we continued to argue he said he was in front.
He said if I touch the house again or damage it, he'll do it again. The house which he paid for and worked so hard is like children he has to protect. He said when I throw the knife or hit the counter in anger or slam a door example I become an enemy and he has to protect the house and will do it again.
I threatened to call the police but if I did I know it would be over. I wouldn't feel safe living here if I had and he would not want to work on it.
I know some people will say it's my fault cause I threw the knife in the sink.
It's the 2nd time he's taken my sweater and did that but I hit the surface of the bureau right before so I am probably at fault.
God hates divorce and what would people say about Jesus if they heard these things ? ?? They would scoff at our beliefs.
No one knows. Everyone thinks he's wonderful. And he can be so wonderful and caring. He's very successful and people think he's successful and intelligent. I would be so concerned about things being twisted to make me look bad if it came out.
Please if you respond to this, please be careful what you say to not make me feel even more stupid than I feel now and have been told I an.
It's not easy to leave when you are living in it. The hope of change is always there because it's not always 100% bad.
He calls me stupid dumb lazy idiot pig etc...that I never amounted to anything. That even people who know me think I am dumb. That my family are losers. On so on. He says often people didn't want him to marry me but he did.
He often will say he prays for me.
I told him nothing will change unless he prays for God to change him, not me.
He calls me lesbian gay cause he says I am cold. It's hard to warm up when the day before he was calling me names or is rough to me.
Monday he was upset that the food was not ready. He said I was taking too long and that the kitchen was a mess. I usually clean as I go and also afterwards. Some things I had put into the dishwasher already, washed the pan but there were things on the counter. I was making his favorite soup as a surprise in addition to the regular meal. He expects it to be clean. I used to be very disorganized and messy but I am better now.
He starts calling me gay.....etc....idiot and other things to put me down.
So I got upset and threw the knife in the sink. He grabbed me by the collar of my sweater lifted it and we went backwards 5 feet. And he put his fist near my face. He thought he had torn my sweater but it was just the sound of the zipper going down as he twisted the neck.
I had a bruise on my hand trying I guess to remove his hand. My gold necklace broke and I had marks from the necklace on my neck on both sides. The marks left in about a half hour but I did take photos. The bruise on my hand is still sensitive.
He said if I could have scratched the sink or the knife could have bounced and hit him.
He wasn't in front of the sink but 2 feet to the left, same side I threw it from. But as we continued to argue he said he was in front.
He said if I touch the house again or damage it, he'll do it again. The house which he paid for and worked so hard is like children he has to protect. He said when I throw the knife or hit the counter in anger or slam a door example I become an enemy and he has to protect the house and will do it again.
I threatened to call the police but if I did I know it would be over. I wouldn't feel safe living here if I had and he would not want to work on it.
I know some people will say it's my fault cause I threw the knife in the sink.
It's the 2nd time he's taken my sweater and did that but I hit the surface of the bureau right before so I am probably at fault.
God hates divorce and what would people say about Jesus if they heard these things ? ?? They would scoff at our beliefs.
No one knows. Everyone thinks he's wonderful. And he can be so wonderful and caring. He's very successful and people think he's successful and intelligent. I would be so concerned about things being twisted to make me look bad if it came out.
Please if you respond to this, please be careful what you say to not make me feel even more stupid than I feel now and have been told I an.
It's not easy to leave when you are living in it. The hope of change is always there because it's not always 100% bad.
