I need to talk to someone about what is going on in my life ...
I grew up in a moderately fundamentalist/non-denominational/ dispensationalist/generally Arminian church. It is the church I still attend, actually.
Very recently (i.e. about 3-4 months ago) I was introduced to confessional Reformed teaching and I find myself drifting in that direction. Okay, that's probably not the way to put it - I feel more like God has completely changed around my way of thinking because I used to be dead set against anything remotely Calvinistic. I used to be a die hard dispensationalist and now I am seriously questioning that system in favor of Covenant theology.
I find myself really struggling in church these days because 1) the confessional Reformed law/gospel distinction does not seem to be either believed or preached in our church, 2) the worship (though sincere) is largely man-centered rather than God-centered, 3) communion is served only once a month and great liberties are taken with the form the elements take from month to month, 4) dispensationalism colors everything, 5) I am having issues with the use of technology in the worship service ... among other things.
In addition to this, our church is very small and the vast majority of the members are 50+. I feel like I need to have fellowship with other believers my own age and stage of life (I am single). I am 29 and I don't think God has called me to be single for the rest of my life, and online dating seems so forced and artificial. I am afraid that if I just continue to wait for God to drop someone at my doorstep I will be waiting until it is too late.
So I am contemplating leaving my church and finding another church ... but on the other hand, many of the people in my current church are wonderful people and have helped me greatly in my spiritual growth over the years. I can't imagine hurting them by leaving ... but on the other
hand God seems to be calling me toward something different, and I can't expect the whole church to change its beliefs because of something I say.
What should I do?? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.
I grew up in a moderately fundamentalist/non-denominational/ dispensationalist/generally Arminian church. It is the church I still attend, actually.
Very recently (i.e. about 3-4 months ago) I was introduced to confessional Reformed teaching and I find myself drifting in that direction. Okay, that's probably not the way to put it - I feel more like God has completely changed around my way of thinking because I used to be dead set against anything remotely Calvinistic. I used to be a die hard dispensationalist and now I am seriously questioning that system in favor of Covenant theology.
I find myself really struggling in church these days because 1) the confessional Reformed law/gospel distinction does not seem to be either believed or preached in our church, 2) the worship (though sincere) is largely man-centered rather than God-centered, 3) communion is served only once a month and great liberties are taken with the form the elements take from month to month, 4) dispensationalism colors everything, 5) I am having issues with the use of technology in the worship service ... among other things.
In addition to this, our church is very small and the vast majority of the members are 50+. I feel like I need to have fellowship with other believers my own age and stage of life (I am single). I am 29 and I don't think God has called me to be single for the rest of my life, and online dating seems so forced and artificial. I am afraid that if I just continue to wait for God to drop someone at my doorstep I will be waiting until it is too late.
So I am contemplating leaving my church and finding another church ... but on the other hand, many of the people in my current church are wonderful people and have helped me greatly in my spiritual growth over the years. I can't imagine hurting them by leaving ... but on the other
hand God seems to be calling me toward something different, and I can't expect the whole church to change its beliefs because of something I say.
What should I do?? Any advice would be greatly appreciated.