I been looking for a full time job for over seven years now. While I am employed working two part time jobs, both are dead end and neither pay enough for me to live on my own ( I am 30 with a bachelors degree and working on a masters degree). Every time I get interviewed for a DREAM job I pray and ask God to open doors. EVERY TIME I end up disappointed because I never get them. I am just tired of asking and praying for a WIN in life and at this point, I think I am just going to stop. I am no longer going to ask God for anything for myself anymore because it just ends up being ignored anyway. I will just pray for others as it seems God actually answers prayers for others, just not me.
I don't know if God is punishing me for some sins in my life or what, but this is just very frustrating is causing me to lose faith. What should I do??????
WE have so felt the same way around here...to maximize those feelings we have had close friends pray that someone else would get a great job that we desperately needed. Ouch
I do want to encourage you with two things however.
1. God is really trying to teach me absolute trust in Him. No matter if we are homeless, have no idea where the next meal is coming from, need healing really bad, or just are too tired to try anymore, God is gracious and loving and has provided all I need, is done...I may not understand it, or think that I need something I don't, but what is need He has already done and I need to learn to rest in simple trust of that as a young child trusts their parents to provide for them.
2. another story....some 25 years or so in coming. We were in a desperate situation in which we needed to move. Someone else posted about needing to move and since I understood the desperate nature I took a serious interest in praying for them. As I prayed, God asked me, "what would you give that they could move." I argued with God, "we can both move, you are big enough for that." God replied, "I didn't ask you how big I am I asked what you would be willing to give"..after much inward turmoil I gave in, "I would be willing to stay here if you would move them." Within the week they moved and we suffered for a few more years. Today we have a miracle but it took years and years and years and lessons of humility the likes of which don't seem to make sense.
I guess my point is this, you are being given a beautiful opportunity to learn and grow in both faith/trust and humility. Make good use of the opportunity as you ask God why He isn't giving you the job that you "need"....you might be surprised at the answer.
In the meantime...may our God give you grace, wisdom, peace as you wait for Him to open the doors that He has in His wisdom designed specifically for you.
Please keep us posted, I have a feeling that God has something amazing waiting for you.