While I have implied at times my path in Orthodoxy, I've never told the whole thing. Here is my story:
My parents met in 1975. My mother was born and raised in the Catholic Church, and my father was born and raised in the Ukrainian Orthodox Church that was founded by his maternal grandparents. In 1976 they were married in the Ukrainian Orthodox Church, but my mother did not convert to Orthodoxy.
In 1979 I was born, and in 1982 my sister followed. We were both baptized as infants into the Orthodox Church, and my father made sure that we went to Church every Sunday. Although we attended Sunday school every week, we really did not have a full understanding of what was going on, as the Liturgy was done primarily in Ukrainian and the teachings of the faith were not reinforced at home. (Although my father brought us to Church, he left it up to my Catholic mother to help us with our Sunday School homework and reinforce our faith at home.)
In 1990 my parents divorced, and my mother was granted full-time custody of my sister and I, with my father having us on alternating weekends. It was during this time that my mother became a "born-again" Christian, and would take us to a Baptist Church for Sunday and Wednesday services on the weekends she had us.
While I was initially resistant to this new change, and was upset that my mother was telling me the faith of my father's family was "wrong" and that unless they were "saved" they were all going to hell, I soon began to like the Baptist Church. The services were in English (big plus!), there were a lot of kids my age, and the music was "current and up to date." As a pre-teen, I began to view the Orthodox Church as being old fashioned and out of date. The Baptist Church was cool to me, and they didn't care whether I was 100% Ukrainian or not.
As I began to mature into a teenager, I began to get more and more involved with the Baptist Church, and began to distance myself from the Orthodox Church. While there was a brief period in my early twenties where I was going to the Orthodox Church full time, I soon reverted back to the Baptist Church. (I guess you could say I was doctrinely bi-polar!

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In November of 2003 I was re-baptized by full immersion in the Baptist Church. I was "saved," had my ticket to heaven, and nothing in heaven or hell could take that away from me. I had done it. I had shed the old ethnic shell of the Ukrainian Orthodox Church, and was a full-fledged WASP. After all, I was an American! This was it, all I needed was my Bible and Jesus, and life was good.
But something was missing...
The Baptist Church I attended had become a Protestant mega-Church and had more programs to bring people to Christ than you could shake a stick at. They were constantly inventing and re-inventing themselves to appeal to the masses, but were constantly forgetting the most important thing; Christ. They had hung a projection screen in front of the only Cross in the Church so the minister could have a power point presentation to accompany his sermons.
Rather than preparing for services in prayer and mediation, the minister was doing sound checks, checking the lighting gels, and putting on make-up!
I couldn't help but think "
this is what the early Church was like?"
It was during Great Lent of 2004 that I started to seriously contemplate leaving the Baptist Church. In 2004, both the East and the West celebrated Pascha/Easter on the same date. I knew that I should have been fasting during that time in preperation for Pascha. I knew that this was a solemn time. My Catholic friends/co-workers had their ashes on Ash Wednesday, the Lutherans draped their Churches in purple, and of course the Orthodox were in the great fast of Great and Holy Lent. Everyone was preparing for the most important date on the Christian calender except us Baptists and non-denominationals.
Something was wrong.
There was no solemness, no reverance, no preperation.
In Orthodoxy, Pascha is a ninety day event; forty days of fasting during Great Lent followed by fifty days of celebration until Pentacost. Not to mention the increased number of services and prayers said during this time. It's a
big deal!
In the Baptist Church, Easter was marked by putting Easter lillies by the pulpit, changing the style of the bulletin, and including a few Easter hymns. Big-whoop-dee-doo! Christ conquers death and we put out Easter lillies.
I jumped on my computer and started researching other denominations within Christianity. I knew the Bible was true and that the doctrine of the Trinity was sound. That I never questioned. But where was the Church Christ established? The Bible said that the Church would never succoumb to the fires of hell, so where was the early Church?
In conducting my research I immediately eliminated any denominations that ordained women or homosexuals. Also removed from the list were any "non-denominational" or "store-front" Churches. As a history buff, I wanted a Church that had depth and history to it. Not just some store front that was the result of some one having a "vision from God" to create a Church. This removed all Protestant denominations from my list. I was then left with the Roman Catholic Church and The Orthodox Church.
As someone who was raised in two anti-papist Churches, I was a bit uneasy with the idea of falling in line with Rome. I never bought into the idea of Papal infallibility; it just didn't jive with me.
But alas, I thought I would give it a try. After all, could it be that I had misjudged the Catholic Church? The answer was a resounding "No!"
Two weeks before Easter I attended a Saturday Evening Mass. Any conceptions I may have had about the Catholic Church being a reverant house of worship flew out the window. The Norvus Ordo Mass of 1963 had made the Catholics Protestant, which is exactly what I was trying to avoid.
Men and women walked around the altar before Mass began as if it were nothing more than a coffee table. People were talking and laughing with no sense of respect that this was GOD's house. What disturbed me the most was during communion, seeing the Eucharistic ministers -- unordained men and
women -- handing out the body and blood of Christ like it was cookies and milk!
It was then I knew that I had to return to Orthodoxy. I realized that the Protestant notions of "each man for himself" and "self-interpretation of the Bible" were nothing but a bunch of horsefeathers. I was an uneducated American who had no knowledge in the writings of the early Church Fathers and could not read a single word of Greek.
Who was
Ito interpret the scriptures?
Who was
I to question the Church Father's authority? These were men that had dedicated their lives to studying the scriptures in their
original languages. I, on the other hand, had barely mastered conversational French! (C'est vrai!)
The Church existed for 360+ years prior to the canonization of the Bible. Obviously the early Church Father's teachings and writings had to have merit to carry the Church that far for that long.
I then got on my computer again and started reading about Orthodoxy.
Not the yellow and blue Ukrainian nationalistic Orthodoxy that I had been raised up with. I researched the
real Orthodoxy. What the
true doctrines of the Church were.
I went to message boards, church websites, diocese websites -- I can't tell you how many websites I visited! But I can tell you this: after doing all my research and all my reading I can, without a doubt say that the Orthodox Church IS the One, True Faith.
And so, on April 4, 2004 I returned to the Orthodox Church.
And that's my story.
In XC,
Maureen