OK, so you kept quiet about it because you knew what would happen if you spoke your doubts. Did that make you any less of a Christian? This is the whole crux of the matter! And I might point out that not being able to see the truth is not the same as rejection. It is just not fully understanding. When Christ saves us, we have no theology because we were sinners immediately prior to that experience! We have to start from ground zero, but if all we are surrounded by is errant theology, we will never know true theology. One must be in contact with it to hear it (remember we now have ears to hear) so we can accept it. To banish someone from a Christian area of the board and call them non-Christian just because they haven't had the good pleasure to have been surrounded by truth all their lives is not the way a Christian does things, IMO.
What you are saying is that an individual is saved before one believes. It is Calvinism which is fine. Believe it.
You asked me if not believing that Jesus was God made me any less Christian. I am not even sure I was a Christian then.
I was drawn very strongly and God led me and clearly was with me.
Salvation comes when we believe Jesus identity as He claims it to be, not what I would like him to be.
There is no such thing as an atheist Christian because they believe in another Christ.
There is no such thing as Buddhist Christians because they believe in another Christ.
There is no such thing as Mormon Christian because they believe in another Christ.
And all 3 refer to the historical Jesus.
Being a Christian means believing in a
true Christ. Christ is not even his name. "Christ" means the Anointed One.
There is only one Anointed One who has a unique description.
Christ said unless you believe who I claim to be you will perish in your sins. And He claimed to be the I AM.
That is why God honed me and taught me some 25 years ago when I had my doubts, so I fully understood what Christian actually means.
If someone would have told me then I was not a christian because I did not believe in the deity of Christ, I guarantee you I would not have been upset or insulted but would have said like many other characters in the Bible - What should I do to be saved?
I think you are worried more about peoples' feelings more than actually telling people they are still in their sins if they do not receive Christ as who He claimed to be.