Have I committed the unpardonable sin?

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I don't think anybody who hasn't had a unrepented spree of sinning after seeing the light or being in Christ can understand any of what we're going through right now. In our case it's not what we read and think about how God thinks about us that is the problem..it's the mental state that we got ourselves in by earlier said sinful behavior that troubles us. Imagine 1 day without a sincere smile,frown or tear...what's 1 day? We have been emotionless ever since we fell from grace. I have almost reached 2 YEARS without feeling any emotion. Even when people we used to love die, we don't feel any sadness. We are dead already.
Trust me on this: It is possible to die spiritually in this life and to be doomed after you've been born again. Stay with Christ, nourish your mind with the Word of God and don't slide back into sin...it can cost you your life like it did to me.

This is exactly where I'm at and what I'm experiencing. The "second birth" which cleansed me of my former sins happened entirely outside the context of organized religion, and when I tried to take part in organized religion the personal "revelation" didn't translate into it. When I try to describe it to anyone they look at me as if I'm speaking ancient Greek. Some of the points made on here ring true, such as there would be no conscience or concern left in a totally reprobate mind. Satan wouldn't convict you of sin, he'll encourage you to do it and then go accuse you before the Father if you do. That if, like me, you were under a "strong delusion" that led you into error for a time, and then came out of it and were being heavily convicted/chastised for persistent sin, that is an indication of not having completely quenched the spirit. That is also an indication that any sins or blasphemies that were done were done in "ignorance and unbelief" (just like Saul's before he was Paul), even though you may have thought you had been enlightened and were being faithful. Truly, if you have a concern for the fate of any soul, no matter how faint, yours or anyone else's, then you are still being called to turn away from any and all sin and back to your God. Think about it, if He really called you, would He not have known what temptations and sins you might fall into? Did He not know what was to come? The test wasn't whether you'd fall into them, but whether you'd choose to stay in them. If you stop doing them, and resist the evil one, you are no longer in a state of rebellion.

PM me if/when you ever log back on, I care about what happens to you.
I also have a link to another forum site I can share, but am unsure whether this forum allows links to other forums. It breaks down the original Greek in the book of Hebrews, and people's tendency to misinterpret it to their dread.
 
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Hello everyone,
I haven’t finished reading the whole conversation, but you don’t know how much I can relate to your experiences.
I have been struggeling for 7 years or so. It is ridiculously awful experience and I am in a sense glad that I can read very similar stuff to my experience, and I really really would like to chat with you guys. Is it possible. Has anyone been here recently?
 
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Hello everyone,
I haven’t finished reading the whole conversation, but you don’t know how much I can relate to your experiences.
I have been struggeling for 7 years or so. It is ridiculously awful experience and I am in a sense glad that I can read very similar stuff to my experience, and I really really would like to chat with you guys. Is it possible. Has anyone been here recently?
I keep an eye on this thread as I think may Christians are dealing with similar situations.
 
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This is pure agony. If I had only listened to the warnings of the Bible instead of people who creatively parsed out the "scary" verses.
Part of my story that I have discovered those verses in the first place and somehow the details, events, spiritual experiences in my life went in line with those verses. I wish we could do a video conference chat and share.
 
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I don't know how i can send private message on this christian forum website. If you know how let send me your Facebook account on my private message box. Then I will add you to our messenger group
I don't know either how to send a PM here. Anyone could help, please?
 
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I don't know either how to send a PM here. Anyone could help, please?

Click on their name. Then click on "Start a conversation".

Also on your previous comment, I would just rather not know if I am a damned soul and just keep seeking God out and hope that He will respond someday.
 
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I don't know how i can send private message on this christian forum website. If you know how let send me your Facebook account on my private message box. Then I will add you to our messenger group
Hi again,
I read the terms, and there is a rule to have at least 20 comments to be able to pm someone; therefore I have put up my email adress temporarly on my profile; please write me there, so I can write you back.
Thank you!
 
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Hi Inagony let me know your Facebook web page in order that I can add you, maybe in your bio because I can't pm

Yeah I didn’t think this through I don’t want my real name out there, guess I’ll just correspond here. Thanks
 
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Okay, so I wanted to take a moment to respond to this because I know EXACTLY how it feels to worry about the unpardonable sin.
Ill make this as brief as possible.
Growing up I always worried about this and when I got older, I wanna say for like a year straight I was tormented daily with the idea of the unpardonable sin.
I would legitimately cry and the thoughts never stopped.
I started researching and reading books and found out a lot of people had this same issue.
The thing that really helped me is when people would say "You clearly care, so you didnt do it"
" You read your bible and pursue God, you clearly didnt do it"
"Your praying and wanting to get closer to the Lord, and the nudge of the Holy Spirit saying go to church, pray for that person, PURSUE ME"
Clearly if someone did the unpardonable sin, they would not be thinking like that, THEY WOULDNT CARE ABOUT GOD!!!
You're clearly bothered by the thoughts which means RUN TO GOD!

Once in a while the devil will still try to torment me and get me into those thought loops but I have to say it went from all day long to almost non existent.
I just focus on God now.

This man below also helped me so much and had the same similar issues
I highly reccomend you watch him.
His name is DAN MOHLER
If the youtube video wont work type in on youtube "Dan mohler, resist the devil" its the first video and hes in a yellow shirt


Be blessed
 
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I don't know how i can send private message on this christian forum website. If you know how let send me your Facebook account on my private message box. Then I will add you to our messenger group
Can I please join the facebook group too? Help me man I'm in the same boat. My email is Ninet415@gmail.com
 
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Hello all,

I have already shared my story on this forum somewhere about a year ago. I'm still stuck in the same predicament and I've been wondering if I have committed the unpardonable sin. To summarize my story: I was depressed, as an atheist, around the later part of 2015. Then I prayed, because I was so desperate and my prayer was answered. I found God and I learned what the Holy Spirit was and what It did in my life. I had really never felt better than ever before, it felt as if I became a new human being. I started walking,talking, thinking and doing everything in a new way. I was so happy that I found God and wanted to become a better person after He'd shown me that I was a great sinner before.

Then I started backsliding, severely, and ignoring the revelations and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I didn't want to do certain things that God wanted me to do, because that meant giving up on sin. So I started to love sin again and was a great partaker in it. I kept doing this until my mind got, what I believe is called 'reprobated'. Emotionally flat, no interest in anything, mentally turned inwards and hella confused, concentration and sleeping problems. Summarized: I have nothing left to live for, I don't even love my closest family anymore.

Life is so hard right now and I can't take it much longer. All of this writing doesn't come from actual despair, I don't feel anything at all. I don't even seem to care about God and my past sins anymore, my conscience is seared and it doesn't stop.

I quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol 3 weeks ago , but it hasn't changed anything for me. Hebrews 6 4-6 isn't even bothering me anymore even though I know I fit the picture and I certainly can't be returned to a repentant state. I have rejected the gift of salvation and I'm therefor hellbound. I even saw a part of me slipping into a great red wall of fire when I was on a shrooms trip áfter I had lost the Holy Spirit or close to the end of losing It and I actually felt the heat for a brief moment. I took these shrooms because I wanted to get another revelation. I heard my parents cry that I was gone and then saw that part of me sinking in a pit of fire. I was ungrateful, only loved sin after I had been born again and I'm a terrible person.

Also, there is no actual hatred of self anymore, I don't have to 'forgive myself',because I don't even feel that there's something to forgive. As if I have forgotten about everything I've done in the past. My mind is a mess.
So my question is: Can I fix this situation or am I done here and should I just accept my fate?

It sounds like you have a lot of unaddressed pain in your life and you are doing just about everything humanly possible (note that I said humanly and not spiritually or otherwise) to try and numb it. The drugs, the alcohol, etc.. You are trying to do everything you can to avoid your pain because to do otherwise would mean that you actually have to feel it and walk in it.

I was the same way. I didn't use drugs and alcohol but I indulged in sin and focused on doing what felt good or "right" at any given moment because it meant I didn't have to really feel my pain for awhile. I completely understand and I feel for you, friend.

But one day you are going to have to feel your pain. You are going to have to face it head on and walk into it. It will hurt a lot. But you do not have to feel it all alone. God is not looking down on you and pitying your condition. God will be right there hurting with you in your pain. God does indeed care when you are upset and hurting. God cries with you when you cry. Even if you cannot see or feel Him, trust that He is there and that He cares.

Once you face your pain and understand how much God does love you I think, so long as you resolve to stay away from drugs and alcohol and remember to pray and talk to Him, you'll find things slowly start to get better. A very slow process but it is worth it. Feeling like you are finally on the mend is the best feeling in the world.

But really, don't forget to pray earnestly. God can handle your emotions or He wouldn't be God. He can handle your tears, your anger, your pain; He can handle it. All you have to do is talk to Him. That's the first step in a relationship with God is talking to Him. He wants you to talk to Him because He loves you.

I will be praying for you, friend. You're not alone and you are certainly not the only one in the world who has felt like this.
 
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