Roidecoeur78
This world is not my home.
I don't think anybody who hasn't had a unrepented spree of sinning after seeing the light or being in Christ can understand any of what we're going through right now. In our case it's not what we read and think about how God thinks about us that is the problem..it's the mental state that we got ourselves in by earlier said sinful behavior that troubles us. Imagine 1 day without a sincere smile,frown or tear...what's 1 day? We have been emotionless ever since we fell from grace. I have almost reached 2 YEARS without feeling any emotion. Even when people we used to love die, we don't feel any sadness. We are dead already.
Trust me on this: It is possible to die spiritually in this life and to be doomed after you've been born again. Stay with Christ, nourish your mind with the Word of God and don't slide back into sin...it can cost you your life like it did to me.
This is exactly where I'm at and what I'm experiencing. The "second birth" which cleansed me of my former sins happened entirely outside the context of organized religion, and when I tried to take part in organized religion the personal "revelation" didn't translate into it. When I try to describe it to anyone they look at me as if I'm speaking ancient Greek. Some of the points made on here ring true, such as there would be no conscience or concern left in a totally reprobate mind. Satan wouldn't convict you of sin, he'll encourage you to do it and then go accuse you before the Father if you do. That if, like me, you were under a "strong delusion" that led you into error for a time, and then came out of it and were being heavily convicted/chastised for persistent sin, that is an indication of not having completely quenched the spirit. That is also an indication that any sins or blasphemies that were done were done in "ignorance and unbelief" (just like Saul's before he was Paul), even though you may have thought you had been enlightened and were being faithful. Truly, if you have a concern for the fate of any soul, no matter how faint, yours or anyone else's, then you are still being called to turn away from any and all sin and back to your God. Think about it, if He really called you, would He not have known what temptations and sins you might fall into? Did He not know what was to come? The test wasn't whether you'd fall into them, but whether you'd choose to stay in them. If you stop doing them, and resist the evil one, you are no longer in a state of rebellion.
PM me if/when you ever log back on, I care about what happens to you.
I also have a link to another forum site I can share, but am unsure whether this forum allows links to other forums. It breaks down the original Greek in the book of Hebrews, and people's tendency to misinterpret it to their dread.
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