My thirties have been... awkward. I feel trapped, wishing I knew 10 years ago what I finally know now. 36 years old, stable but kind of bored with my job/career, brainstorming ways to adjust career or go back to school and change entirely to what I've become more passionate about, in the process of converting to a new religion (protestant/evangelical >>> orthodoxy), finally into the dating world after being an oppressed/shy/late bloomer/ugly duckling male in my 20s, had 2 romantic relationships between 30-35, single now for 1.5 years, not sure if I can (or care) to still get married/have kids, still technically a virgin when "saving myself for marriage" hasn't been my conviction anymore for years, hence sexually frustrated. A bit Lonely. Conflicted between if I should move for a scenery change/better lifestyle, or take time off and live abroad, but wanting to stay close to at least a few old friends/family and feel rooted and "settled down". The 30s are chock-full of conflicting interests between personal realizations/aspirations and societal pressures of what you're supposed to do once you're over 30. It is an awkward age, if you're a single man, has been my experience. Anyways, I'm just happy to be finally discovering the Church that works for me, investigating options for my next job/school move, enjoying my family/friends, working on new friendships, working to liberate myself from those societal pressures while still self-improving and asserting myself towards the things I still want to do in life.