it's crazy because i always thought being in my 30's Jesus started His ministry in His 30's so I thought i'd have some profound realization of life. It more has been a gradual maturing but i have had some realizations in life as well, about how when you cry out to Jesus He will answer rather swiftly. I've asked Jesus for something and sat waiting for mere minutes sometimes seconds and Jesus answers my prayer. Not like "i want $50" and it just appears, while i do believe He could do that it's more along the lines of "Jesus please help please do something" when i am dealing with an employee that is being difficult for what seems on purpose, or when my computer isn't working, or the card reader at the store is acting up and is the only thing between me and getting my groceries that i really need. And behold things turn out for the better. Sometimes they take a while while other times Jesus always sends someone to help almost within seconds to a little over a minute.