A newly released convict wants me to call him to talk, bc he said I'm the kindest person he has ever met in the history of his life. He said he has never known anyone who has been so kind to him.
We struck up conversation in the cab ride he was giving, as he was the driver and it was a long ride.
He gave me his number and first and last name.
He said he hates his living situation as hes surrounded by room mates who drink heavily and fight with each other.
He had self harm injuries all over his arm, well healed and old.
He said he used to be a drug fiend, but was over that.
He said he was celebite for 10 years and his wife died.
Well, I'm celebit and my spouse also died and I used to self harm.
I went home and looked him up in the national data base and found out that he had just been released from another state for "forced rape."
It didn't mention child so I took it as meaning an adult woman.
I never called, but its tugging at my heart.
How long do we hold someone accountable for past sins?
Is he now labed for life, with no friends, and treated like a leper?
I've helped many homeless men who did hard time or lighter felonies, and its hard to find a job and to get housing I hear.
Well, hes working, and sounds like hes living in a half way house with guys who are making his transition difficult.
I suggested he get into AA meeting asap for support and to find a bible believing church (hes said hes born again bible believing type).
He said he cant stand organized religion and just does his daily prayers and devotions to himself.
I wonder if you are on the national registry, if you cannot even go to church bc kids might be there?
IDK
I've read too many stories of ppl trying to make a come back and they are so hated, rejected and ostracized, they take a fall back into drugs, and gradually make the intentional decision to OD on purpose.
This is killing me.
I am interested in prison ministry, and this would be women only if I ever do it.
But these men who get tagged, I feel so badly and I'm so torn apart.
I haven't called out of fear.
How can I pray for him or get him some help?
Well, from the get-go I'd say the thought of calling him is out of the question. It's about risk. Now, could he have done what he did and not do it again? Sure .... Could he do it again, or something worse ... Sure. Is it worth putting yourself at risk? No
I worked 25 years in a prison system, retired from same. A lot of training goes on and I mean a lot. Even myself having a lot of training ... no way I would call this person ... in fact this is based on my training.
It's not your responsibility to get him some help. Help (whether secular and/or spiritual) is out there and available .... we know that ... he knows that. He has the ability to seek them out and if he wants help, he'll find it.
Red Flags:
I'm the kindest person he has ever met in the
history of his life. He said he has
never known anyone who has been so kind to him. So his wife was not kind to him? Nobody and I mean nobody has ever been kind to him during his entire life? Except for you of course. This is referred to (from training) as "grooming" -
prepare or train (someone) for a particular purpose or activity.
His comments to you are way over the top. He could have just said thank you for your conversation and kindness and left it there ... but no .... he gives you his phone number?
"He said he was celebite for 10 years and his wife died".
If he has the ability of being celibate, then why was he convicted of forced rape?
"He said he cant stand organized religion and just does his daily prayers and devotions to himself". "daily prayers and devotions to himself". Does he study Gods word? If true ... you know he has all the help he needs. The Lord will guide him then.
Ok, so am I pre-judging this person? No ... I am considering the risk factor.
This persons current "disposition" is unknown ... therefore there is risk. You have fear ... and that's because you recognize the risk ... so pay attention to that.
"But these men who get tagged", ... There are consequences to actions. The results of those consequences are handled through the Lord if one has a relationship with the Lord. If they don't have the Lord ... then yeah it's a big bummer trying to handle it .
I feel so badly and I'm so torn apart. Don't feel bad and don't feel torn apart. It's not your responsibility to deal with his consequences ... it is his responsibility to deal with them and of course that is best done through the Lord and the Lord is right there ready willing and able to help him, we know that.
So yes pray for the Lord to help him, I will too ... we are even called to pray for our enemies .... but nothing beyond that. Nothing!
God Bless and may the Lord remove your fear with His love, in Jesus name. Amen