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I live in monkey island. That is the definition of a society. Its a giant zoo with many different cages. I get well from mental sickness, when I turn to God and ask how to survive in one of these cages. Ive decided to be a human being around apes. How am I going to wake up and deal with...
I am on my knees, my face to the ground all day long. I am praying to Jesus. I was homeless in the park many years ago. I was suffering from Dissociative disorder and long term server PTSD problems. These are problems that will not be going away. My mind has been permanently altered...
Im looking to trust God during the down times, the lonely times. Possibly asking him for help by bringing me helpers in this life. I have had very little until a few years ago.
Ive actually had many people help me out of kindness. I have no idea how to repay them.
Im a very lucky...
Seems God is the only place for me to turn. No one else cares.. they only care about themselves. I don't get it. I will have to trust God that he can bring me to the right people. Im around all the wrong people; as usual. Im judged to death on every subject and area. I don't get it...
Im a shy kind of person. Withdrawn. I don't do well creating or having relationships with others. Its to scary. Im very much introvert. I suppose if I could look for and find my kind of people, things might be different. I will have to trust God with the idea of opening up to others. Ive...
Im at that place of meeting people. I have an anxiety disorder and it is horribly hard to deal with people close up.
Shame is a problem because of my economic situation due to the anxiety disorder. Im fine with God, God is fine with me. I think Im going to learn to trust this process...
As I slowly walk away from everything, its one more day. The joy in my heart is rendered. I am learning... Learning is a journey to trust God. work with God. Its all God. There is nothing else, there never was anything else. At one time others were willing to be with me and with God. Now...
I feel angry and mad; livid.. Im attempting to trust God that he will bring the right people to me that I may process my stuff. I feel writing blogs is not enough for a decent life. One needs friends. Im waiting upon God.
I have this one friend. He is of very low quality. I appreciate...
Im trying to take it to God the best I can. Im learning..
I want to take it all to God that I can be relieved of the nightmare of trying to be turn to my self will for the answers in things. I have to give it up and turn to God. The enemy wins at times. It sucks.
Gods answer is the...
At a bible study tonight, the subject was " Obey God". to obey God is not easy. This simple concept of aligning myself with God. To Obey God is very hard.
I believe Im being called to obey God. Im being called to look under the problems to a deeper level that pushes the world out the...
I was forced to look for new places and new faces.. It hurts a great deal. And I know I hurt others a great deal..
Im hoping my personality will get stronger and get better. I have so much PTSD problems, and dissociative disorder problems..
My room or apartment is getting cleaner. This...
I have PTSD problems.. .Its been awhile since I got hit with big trauma..
I met a girl last year, she was from the streets.. She was exceptionally beautiful... She fell in love with me.. I fell in love with her..
I picked up the pace... then I broke down... I got scared...
In this last adventure, I was de throned or kicked out.. now I must look at what happened and start again somewhere else.
I lost the battle, I lost the war.. I lost everything...
And how quickly this commeth.
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To God I look for rest. Rest, to start over again. I...
I got hit by an authentic sociopath. Ive written about her several times from the last months≥ However, has I wake up Im seeing things for what they are.. Its a horrible plight. Anyone that has dealt with a sociopath understands, all they can do is move on. These people create spontaneous...
Quiet, gentle, and easily imposed on; submissive:
I like meek people; I see them at celebrate recovery 12 step groups.... I like it there. Im a sensitive introverted person. I like people that have been through many hardships and love God...
Ive been around some bad people not to...
Trusting God, is the kind of thing you do when you get old and are not attractive anymore, or you think your not, or you think to little of yourself, and all of this before you've ever lived your life.
I have to learn to trust God, Its all very hard. Im slowly getting stronger, but not...
I have to learn how to have a stronger relationship with God. Im in this place that requires God to take the place of human relationships. In general God has kept me alive. Now I need him on a daily basis, to be with me in the place of ugly people... I need Gods help all the time. All...
beginning to realize that I was taken: the girl at the meetings.. I was used, as one of many prospects for this persons personal fulfillment possibilities. All of this is very hard.
I walked into this.. Im not sure how I get snagged, the girl wanted to snag me. She ended up with...
As I get stronger, I look back at what makes me stronger. I got caught up in something that almost destroyed me. I got caught by someone that could have destroyed me, and later, tried to destroy me.
I can forgive most things. Im having a hard time with the issue of betrayal. I will...
Good people bare good fruit. Bad people bare bad fruit...
I am a wonderfully good person who is tying to bare good fruit in a world of awareness of evil. Most that I can do is try to stay awake as a human experience.
I am surrounded by such evil.... I am surrounded by deception...