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Ive been ripped apart in this life. Ive been ripped apart and at such high levels of damage that I should stay away from all people. I have no trust or respect or tolerance for them.
Ive had a rough time with women!
I have hidden pain from being ripped apart.. and its hard to get...
I wanted to say; history! thats not the right choice. Its not history! its long from history! Its just getting started.. It was so bad, how do I process this! I do not know! Im so alone! it sucks. I miss my father and my mother! that I never had. Im just 6 years old, and I want to...
Kinda; a newer day! '
Im interested in hip hop beats, using the equipment. I like its world. Its something I could get into and hide.
I hate getting into something then finding out its not mine anymore!
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Recovery is hard! very hard, real hard! day after day after day...
These Christian Forums are the right place to express my discontent when good and evil must work in the same room together!
Im at allot of 12 step meetings; I have lots of problems and need lots of healing.
seems, their are so many satanists in the world that regard nothing! they...
The girl at the meetings was wishful thinking! the idea that she was attracted to me was a pipe dream! She started out with some interest that quickly turned cold! Now Im nothing! not noticed! Im shunned, shunned like a nun with a machine gun!
Im spit on spiritually by those that have...
The future looks like social interaction to me!
Im studying social interactions. Im at that point of working my way into a new way of thinking! Social is the next step. Im at the stage of study! Im still studying. Im not at much participation! Its picking up! However, I need to...
Ive been asleep all my life. Im starting over! Ive had to put allot of work into learning things that a 1o year old knows. Ive had to relearn.
Social interest was non existence for me! Ive had the worst of attitudes about social existence.
Ive had fear, and nothing less.
Im slowly...
Im lonely: Im doing better.
I must trust God.
Its funny how people judge. I have people that like me, hate me, think they are better then me.! None of them has a clue who they are talking to!
Its arrogant to think I know someone because I make up stuff about them. Or, because...
Im seeing myself before I was destroyed. Im seeing the memories, much like a si fi movie real when showing the earth before the nuclear blast.
Im attempting to get better, that I connect again with the real me before I was destroyed. With the good memories are the bad ones, and this is...
So, I walked into the bank, and Ive seen her before, she moved up from teller! She is now working one of the desks, as an officer trainee I suppose..
She has stared at me a few times walking by! Ive caught her! I caught me off guard.. Im not into hitting on tellers or taking an...
Father: In this case, Im talking about my real Father! ( Dad).
As I wake up socially, I am beginning to understand why I don't want a first relationship,. I need my father. I need my father here to sanctify my relationship! He is gone now! and will never be again!
Ive been waiting...
Seems no one is on my side, and I mean this. In fact, Im not sure I have taken aside. Ive been asleep and have not defined a side I believe in.
Im understanding that one takes a side to what they believe in and what they do not!
I need to pick a side and oust a side. If you do...
The child in me wants to speak..
Im not sure when that will happen.
The child in me has been waiting for me to grow up that I can take care of him.
I am taking over were my parents left off. They were demonic and tried to destroy him. They killed him,. murdered him. God is...
As I slowly come back to life, Im noticing how horrible people are! they are toxic! Haters.
Im getting infected! My identity needs strengthening... I need more boundaries..
I get judged by people that hate and are jealous and have no respect for anything or anyone. I am of no...
I try to open up to people about my relationship problems and social anxieties, and they don't want to help. They want to keep me back from developing. But it wont stop me, it wont work. It does scare me! and they know its working when they scare me, and I admit, it is intimidating and...
So, Im looking at my past with the understanding that everything must go!
There was no foundation of my past! nothing. It was all a lie! It was based on the most gruesome evil! and the players in this evil were lovers of the one below! I think!
I remember people, places and...
My original family system never was! they were never what I thought they were!
I meant nothing to these people because they are demons; and always were, heading in the direction of being possessed!
The house owners were taken long ago by satan. Im not sure the real personalities...
I need to keep working with God! Im in the middle of everything!
Im trying to work through my feelings, things I had in 4 grade through 8th grade!
That is a good place to start, and really honest. I have a whole hidden self that was split open and apart from me! and then ruined...
I have to remember the art! Im an artist, and the goal is; get socially along enough that I can relax and start the art stuff again.. mainly the music..
Ive done art work at every 12 step meeting, I create a picture at almost every meeting! However, this is beginning rural work (...