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Im moving ever forward into relationships.
Im traumatically not ready for them. However, Im easing up on the idea of relationships.
Im staying with it; Im allowing the girl to take notice and haven't given up.. Im not sure what Im doing or how God approves. I don't think God approves...
Ive been going back to my celebrate recovery meetings...
I really like them and the people.. Some times a controlling weirdo will show up who I don't want in my space.. I don't like creepos. Creepo's are people that want to control me to hide from there own dysfunction.. They tend not to...
Im obsessed,. I need to turn back to my hobbies.
Im at the point of practicing with reconnection. I know this girl from my meetings I like. I don't think God thinks she is right for me. I see satan in her when I pray about her to God. I think God is telling me to get out of there,. but...
I need God.. I need him now more then ever. I don't like this place: earth. Ive seen to much. Ive been through to much...
Ive had no peace because the wicked have no place to rest and they keep bothering me. I need better boundaries.
The truth is not good enough for most. Its good...
Im slowly waking up and practicing again. Trauma destroyed my life many years ago. my mind became paralyzed and I could not respond . I was like a schizophrenic. Im slowly learning how to open up again.. Very cautiously. Im not well received by people. People are viscous and do not...
I don't hate anyone.. Im shocked at the treatment I receive from people. They continually go for the throat of the soul. Some people think my soul is a trophy to be trampled,. killed, and put on there wall as an ornament. Im naive.
The bible talks of those in the light being taken...
Im in pain from the massive PTSD overloads. Im OK. Ive been a tank for 30 years surviving mental stuff that would kill the normal person in 3 months..
Its still here; the pain!. it comes from trusting people who should not be trusted. I cant trust anyone.. that is how it always feels...
Dignity: "is a term used in moral, ethical, and political discussions to signify that a being has an innate right to respect and ethical treatment. It is an extension of the Enlightenment-era concepts of inherent, inalienable rights".
I could not say it better!...
Im afraid, being...
I've been praying about it. Im without understanding...
I cant go forward with this women because of my baggage.. that hurts to say this!.. Its about being bullied when I was younger, made a fool out of, a laughing stock, then thrown away.. No family.. They betrayed me and never...
I have several strange friends. They are sadistic and controlling in many ways. They disappear when I start getting my life together or I start needing support to move forward, or Im grieving..
Im moving forward socially.. This is phenomenal thing. Im not sure where it will take me. I...
I've played cat and mouse with a young women in my meetings.... I finally danced with her at a dance, slow danced with her... Danced with her all night.
Then I pulled back, I never talked with her.. I lost trust with her. I was getting to close and scared of my feelings.
I've...
Bike stolen: Im attempting to grieve its loss.. Its bad, not that bad... It was 1300 bucks, that puts a big dent in things... I learned my lessons... And that lesson is worth more then 13,000 bucks.. Correction is worth it. Now that I know what not to do, Im back on line. That is what...
Im taking a break from the 12 a clock meetings: a girl I like is in those meetings and I cannot approach her. My feelings seem blocked by her. I think I will give her what she wants, and it gives me an excuse to leave the meeting place, I will stay away, its time.
God is not calling me...
a fantasy bond that protects me is being investigated by the child in me and God.. An answer is 4th coming, as I am watching movement in the abandon adolescent years of my life. With out development in those years, one cannot stand, they fumble and die away with little hope or movement...
People are letting me down!, they are using me!, and getting away with it. It has served God to serve me for awhile. However, things are changing. If one does not respect me or like me, I do not want them near me. I am not interested in there stupid way of life. I am not around people to...
Trusting God to let go. I have to remember, friends come and go...
I have interested people, however, I make mistakes... and the people leave. I have to remember to let it go, its not all about me. its there problem as well..
Although I don't see it as there problem.. If...
More and more, in my blogs and comments abroad, I give God all the credit for everything... God is the foundation of the world.. He is everything to me. He is all that I have ever had. I love God and am glad I have him to turn to. Humans are to strange to understand..
I am liked and...
The end is when I die.. or I am no longer capable of having awareness capacity.. This will happen at some point... Until that time, sustaining on planet earth is a necessity.. God is the only answer.
How can anyone live in this place. Live in this place without God. I am lucky.. I was...
So many people will die tonight; take there lives. they, being damaged and destroyed; never was nor will be anyone showing up to help them. Finally, they will die away, much like the jewish people in films of poland in the Nazi occupied Ghetto's.
And these deaths are all the time...
Im treated like garbage by people.. Its horrible. They don't want to know the truth... they are worthless.. they want nothing to do with me.. Im the best person they have ever met or will ever meet.. I find this life experience pathetic and disrespectful... despicable and incomplete... Im...