its a diffrent girl. I so wish i could heal her and if i feel the spirit beconing me to and i know it is ment to be i will lay hands on her. But i have no power of myself. Neither does a pastor unless he has a gift of healing. but why would there be such a gift if it was free for everyone?
The subject of healing is a huge topic. The more I read and the more I learn, the more questions I have also. But thank God we know much more today than say 10 years ago.
I would encourage you to read Kenneth E Hagin for some basic fundamentals on healings and how they operate. Read Smith Wigglesworth and John G Lake too for some really awesome miracles to encourage you.
Basically, there are 2 ways to receive healing. One is by the gifts of healings. Notice its plural. ie when it is in operation in a service, the Spirit gives out freely, say, a gift of healing for cancer, then a gift of healing for migraine, then a gift or healing for backaches, etc. Some healing evangelists are more successful in the area of cancers, some in the area of backaches, some both etc. Why I do not know. Its up to God.
The 'downside' to receiving by this method is that it depends on the Spirit and the minister to who the Spirit works through. IOW, the sick person has to wait for a powerful healing evangelist to come to town, then hope that the gift will operate and be given to him at a particular service. In that sense, you may or may not receive it. And some people dont have time to wait for the next man of God to come to town.
A better and higher way of receiving healing is by the written Word. It is by taking hold of what God says about sickness and healing in his Word and confessing them over the sickness. In short, you are making the physical symptoms and what you see in the natural, 'line-up' with what God says about your body.
Receiving by this way is 'better' in the sense that you dont have to wait for the next healing evangelist to come to town.
There's a lot more to it and I'm afraid I'm only giving you a very crude and watered-down explanation. Its better you read up some good books on healing.
I would also highly recommend FF Bosworth's Christ the Healer and TL Osborn's Healing the Sick.