- Mar 25, 2005
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I really believe that lack of closure on anything contributes to my depression more than anything else. This is the most painful example right now.
I have been aware of an old family photo from my mom's generation, it was from the early 1960s. She was in her later teens. In the photo was her, her mother, and a boy next to her and my mother was holding hands with that boy, and I keep getting tears in my eyes, wondering who was this boy, why were they holding hands, were they just one date or were they a couple, and why didn't my mom ever tell me about this? My mom never mentioned any boyfriend to me EVER. Who was the boy who thought my mom was special? Did my mom like this boy? Did he like her? My mom was very conservative so I'm sure that they didn't do any hanky panky, but I'll never know the nature of what was going on in this photo. Will I ever find out, even after I die? I want to know about this picture, it literally moves me to tears. She can't talk to me about this, she is too ill. I feel awkward asking my dad if he knows about it. But I have no one else I can ask.
i do believe you will find out all the answers one day. For it says in Scripture that everything in darkness will be brought to light. So please do take comfort in Christ's promises also when it comes to your mother. Bless your heart caring about her so much and have always seen that as your greatest asset. Suffering depression as you do and still faithfully looking after your ill mother. Jesus will certainly be happy to see such love alive in you.
Be blessed.
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