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I don't know, but the suicidal thoughts are returning with a vengeance... All the years of being hurt are flooding back into my mind...
I don't know, but the suicidal thoughts are returning with a vengeance... All the years of being hurt are flooding back into my mind...
Let them come, and let them go. They'll always go. God be with you.
The reason they flood back to mind is for you to unload them with Christ and let Him take them from you with His gracious love and defuse their power over you. This is essential when we have fallen in them before.
Just keep repenting of them as they come up and force their crap on you again and ask Jesus to give you love and respect fro life instead.
Much love
feeling devastated! found out i'm the worst offender when it comes to my being so ill all the time. I hate myself and hope i die soon hating myself how do you like that for a paradox?
been sorely tempted to harm myself! i suppose even though i don't really want to ask for prayer i need it big time right now.
Can't believe how bad i've been hating myself so ill as i have been. I need forgiveness big time but have none to give myself, never did - i hate myself more than anyone alive.
gnashing teeth or what? No salvation being like this.
Hope you're getting all the help you need. Or perhaps you need more than you'd like to admit? In any case, do what you can.
If you can't forgive yourself, at least allow God to do so. That's what ultimately matters, and your heart will follow suit. He doesn't harm you, so don't you harm yourself either.
About hating oneself. It's the weirdest thing. If someone else hated themselves, you'd come up with plenty of good reasons not to do so, and those reasons would probably be true. But when we're hating ourselves, we tend to think that we're special, that no goodness can have anything to with us, and that our self-hate is somehow necessary or important. For me, it can be like a weird form of pride, like I'm acting on behalf of universal justice or something. But in reality I'm just blind.
Said a prayer for you friend. I hope you allow some rest and mercy for yourself.
Thanks bro you are very right about a lot of things here.
The problem is I have always agreed with my abusers hating me and that is why I have been so ill.
That happens a lot. It's all twisted. If you don't love yourself, as those who harmed you didn't, then it all seems to make more sense, to be more understandable that way. Even though it's just deception.
Now you'll learn to do it right, slowly but surely. God is with you.
I have the utmost faith in you, Gerry. You'll get through this.Yes it is amazing isn't God loves me even a loveless person for He gives me the opportunity to lay such a life down and pick up life in His Son instead. The sicker I feel and the more I long for sleep the more this truth is coming home to me. Wonder when the split with crappy loveless spirit will happen? So miserable right now.
Still very thankful God address all of this now before it is tool late and not let me perish in my guilt and shame. To think I have been much worse than my attackers. Shame on me.
Just my two cents, Tim, but when it comes your back I'd get all the help I could. That part of your body is involved in practically everything you do.I was thinking about putting off physical therapy since I did so well yesterday, but now I'm not so sure. I woke up in a lot of pain... I guess it was the medicine wearing off.
I was thinking about putting off physical therapy since I did so well yesterday, but now I'm not so sure. I woke up in a lot of pain... I guess it was the medicine wearing off.