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I know I should be talking to a bankruptcy lawyer about this, I mean I had a plan and of course because I'm manic I screwed it up again. Explanation? I've been manic for about a month now, it all started when I thought buying an expensive video card and a monitor was a good idea. That should have been clue number one that a manic episode was starting. But, it didn't tip anyone off because I usually buy expensive computer parts and they're part of what makes me, me. But of course my charging didn't stop there, I sold some computer parts I had laying around to help pay for my other parts. But all in all this entire episode so far I've probably charged $14,000 (I had REALLY good credit before) I owe about $12,000 right now.. I can't get credit anywhere because my cards are maxed out and I wasted $1,500 or so trying them pay off. I'm on ssi and there's no way I could pay all my debt off in even 10 or 15 years I screwed up so badly. The worst part? I'm so manic I don't care if I clean out my bank account either, I have to confess I didn't pay my cable bill or rent this month.
Only during a manic episode would I be up at 4 am writing to my family on the Christian forums pleading for help and to understand what's going on and how badly I screwed up. I'm just so pathetic.
Only during a manic episode would I be up at 4 am writing to my family on the Christian forums pleading for help and to understand what's going on and how badly I screwed up. I'm just so pathetic.