I've always thought that the way I looked at relationships was different than most people, when I get into one I take that relationship like an oath, promising myself to be there for that person no matter what happens, but somehow despite all the good I try to do in them they always crash and burn at some point.
Sometimes it's about something stupid like the other person couldn't imagine marrying me because of my Cerebral Palsy and autism (yeah, that was an honest reason for one ending) or it could be as simple as me misunderstanding something and then they get mad because they have to explain a lot of stuff in order for me to understand.
I have never honestly felt truly in love with anyone that I have ever been with, like that feeling of (wow, she's definitely the one for me) and I always ask God if I'm making the right decision, but obviously since I'm single that's a clear indication I haven't been.
Where I live there aren't many places at all to get out and meet new people, the town is so small that you could drive through the entire thing in under a few minutes. If you want to go anywhere to socialize around here you need to go out of town to a bigger city. I'm also not big on dating sites, I always know that there are better looking people on those than me or they have more money, etc. I remember one time I went four months without getting a single message on one of them, despite the few I tossed out genuinely to others.
I've always wondered if it was meant for me to be single, or if something needed to happen in my life before the right one came along, but I'm getting older by the second, and the older you get the harder it is to find someone. I enjoy time to myself don't get me wrong, but I would certainly like to have someone to share it with from time to time, someone loving and honest, who truly can see past my physical and mental disabilities.
Sometimes it's about something stupid like the other person couldn't imagine marrying me because of my Cerebral Palsy and autism (yeah, that was an honest reason for one ending) or it could be as simple as me misunderstanding something and then they get mad because they have to explain a lot of stuff in order for me to understand.
I have never honestly felt truly in love with anyone that I have ever been with, like that feeling of (wow, she's definitely the one for me) and I always ask God if I'm making the right decision, but obviously since I'm single that's a clear indication I haven't been.
Where I live there aren't many places at all to get out and meet new people, the town is so small that you could drive through the entire thing in under a few minutes. If you want to go anywhere to socialize around here you need to go out of town to a bigger city. I'm also not big on dating sites, I always know that there are better looking people on those than me or they have more money, etc. I remember one time I went four months without getting a single message on one of them, despite the few I tossed out genuinely to others.
I've always wondered if it was meant for me to be single, or if something needed to happen in my life before the right one came along, but I'm getting older by the second, and the older you get the harder it is to find someone. I enjoy time to myself don't get me wrong, but I would certainly like to have someone to share it with from time to time, someone loving and honest, who truly can see past my physical and mental disabilities.