I have gone to church before, a long time ago and it seemed everyone was happy smiling and really friendly and I was the odd one out.
I want to go again but I feel like if i went i would put a downer on the mood and i do not want to do that or be that guy and feel its not fair on others.
Because it can be a bit awkward.
I'm a honest person and I believe its good to be yourself and not mask yourself or pretend to be someone or hide your feeling and your real self.
So when people ask me what brings me here or want to know a little about me, I want to share the real truth but at the same time i do not want to put the mood down.
I have had a really difficult life and it still is and I am far from happy.
Should I not say what I really feel or be honest and keep somethings to myself if I can?
Although it will show from the way i interact and expressions and the social awkwardness i display sometimes.
Or should I just avoid Church until i am happy and at a stage that i can appreciate my life?
I want to go again but I feel like if i went i would put a downer on the mood and i do not want to do that or be that guy and feel its not fair on others.
Because it can be a bit awkward.
I'm a honest person and I believe its good to be yourself and not mask yourself or pretend to be someone or hide your feeling and your real self.
So when people ask me what brings me here or want to know a little about me, I want to share the real truth but at the same time i do not want to put the mood down.
I have had a really difficult life and it still is and I am far from happy.
Should I not say what I really feel or be honest and keep somethings to myself if I can?
Although it will show from the way i interact and expressions and the social awkwardness i display sometimes.
Or should I just avoid Church until i am happy and at a stage that i can appreciate my life?