I'm panicking because I don't want to do the Sabbath. It feels like a chore to make sure I don't do any chores. I have a problem with panicking over the rules instead of focusing on the relationship with God,
Any time your response to one of God's commandments is "I don't want to " it is a heart issue.
God calls us to repentance but also gives the New Birth through the Holy Spirit and the New Covenant miracle work of God includes the promise that HE will write His Law on your heart. The new birth is a miracle, the new heart is a miracle, the work of God in the life... is a miracle.
I know that Jesus fulfilled the law, didn't abolish it, so does that mean we still have to do the Sabbath?
We still have to refrain from taking God's name in vain.
We still have to not worship pagan idols
We still have to honor our parents
We still have to keep the Bible Sabbath holy
So then does it matter if I don't want to do the Sabbath? Do I have to force myself to do it?
You have to choose to go to the foot of the cross.
You have to choose to let God do miracles... keep your eye fixed on Christ and not self.
Let go of rebellion - embrace and trust Christ.. He works miracles.
Romans 8:4-9 says that your sinful nature and in fact the sinful nature of all mankind "does not submit to the law of God neither indeed CAN it"
I don't really feel convicted to do it, I think, but I can't tell because I'm anxious
Anxiety can be created by being convicted on some moral issue but yet determined not to comply
Then I also wonder is it on Saturday or Sunday?
Bible scholars who go to church on Saturday - the Bible Sabbath (like I do) and Scholars who promoting going to church on Sunday both admit - that Christ was keeping the Bible Sabbath - attending synagogue on Saturday - (from friday evening to Saturday after sundown).
I choose to follow Christ on that one.
Is it okay to practice the Sabbath on Saturday at home alone, and then go to church on Sunday? Or does your Sabbath have to be on the day you go to church?
You should fellowship with believers that accept the same Bible truths that you are accepting if it all possible because that lessens the sense of anxiety.
I feel like God doesn't want me to panic this much. I feel like the Sabbath should be a day I enjoy
You are right ... it is not a day of panic... it is a day of rest and re-energizing... filling up the batteries.. connecting with Christ in dedicated time that does not get derailed by secular worries or concerns.
The main reasons I don't want to do the Sabbath are as follows:
-I live with my dad (I'm physically injured and can't work right now) and if he asks me to do something on the Sabbath and I don't, I fear getting in trouble. But I don't want to put the will of my dad's before the will of God.
Ask him to study the subject with you from the Bible. It is now Sunday going into Monday God will give you time this week.. - you may find peace on this subject by asking to study with your Dad.
If your Dad knows of your tendency to become anxious - he may also be interested in helping you with this subject -- There is nothing about God's Bible Sabbath that says you cannot keep it with your Dad. But you should try to find a church that also helps rather than opposes your convictions.