Struggling with questions/anxiety

[ProsopoMillion]

Lord, please guide me as I write this. Lord, give me truth and understanding, and continue to give me a heart for Your Word.

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I am having many questions right now in my life, but i am also struggling with anxiety. Thus, I want counsel from mature Believers to help show me the truth.

1. The first thing I want to say is that the other day, when I was praying to the Lord, I prayed for the Lord to clear my mind and to have control in my mind, and very soon after I prayed that prayer, I heard a voice in my head that spoke wondrous, life-affirming things, but also things that went counter to the things I thought I knew about myself. One of the things I remembered hearing, as well as the very first thing I remembered hearing was that God said He would use me and make me good at communication skills (I always believed I was autistic and thought I had no social skills, I'll elaborate on that later) Originally, I felt so relieved, but now I am doubting if that voice was really from God, because He said He would heal me from autism, but I notice little changes in my life.

2. I have been struggling with anxiety lately, as I am feeling unsure about the world. There is so much going on, I am about to go back to college and am feeling nervous, and also with me worrying about voice I want to believe is from God and about if it is so. I also tend to get anxious over every small thing in my life.

3. It has been bothering me if I have autism or not to be honest. I started believing I had autism after people on the Internet I used to interact with (and eventually abused me) manioulated me and told me I was autistic ans less than. Again, I still believe, and want to believe that God has healed me from autism, but it is just hard to trust in things I can't see. Help me pray about this specifically.

4. Back to the voice I believe was from God. Another thing about it is that God also told me that I would be able to do so many things that I still tend to believe I am abysmal at. (one example is sports, I have never really done sports because I was horrendously bad at them, I want to believe the voice is from God but is just feels silly, after all, I always believed math and a few other things were the only things I was good at) Pray that I know if those voices are from God or not.

5. I am still trying to find my purpose in my life. I believe God is guiding me to the purpose He has for me, but I just feel empty.

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I am still a young believer in Christ, I want guidance and I want peace in my life. I don't want to believe that I am worthless, that I am autistic and anxious and that I am only good at a small portion of things, that I am less than.

So for those of you who see this message, pray for me, help me realize I am a Child of God, help me have peace in my life, help me, as I cannot help myself.

God promised me peace and light in my life, so He will give me it.

 

[linux.poet]

Gracious Heavenly Father and Lord Jesus,
I pray for clarity for this person, who You deeply love down to every molecule that You uniquely fashioned, and every event that You have brought into their lives. People are not only built of cells and DNA, but every event that has ever happened to them. We are walking images of You, flowing to reflect your hand of Sovereignty throughout time.

Help them to arrange a test or examination that would allow them to see if their autism has truly been healed, and lead them and guide them in the direction that You would have them go. Guard them from Satan's deceptions, and help them to walk in the Light.
In Christ's Name,
Amen

 

[Anthony2019]

I have often wondered whether I am on "the spectrum". I have never had a diagnosis of autism but I certainly have some of the traits.

Ultimately, whether (or not) you or I have autism does not change the fact that we are God's children and loved by Him. When we give ourselves to Him, He is more than able to equip us with the gifts and skills we need to serve Him.

I often used to worry that I was not like other people. By nature I am quite shy and introverted. People even described me as being somewhat idiosyncratic. But what I have learned is that by simply being myself, people have found it easier to relate to me. Most of them accept me for the person I am, not the person I feel I must become. And that is truly liberating.

When I attended our Eucharist service this morning, I spent some time looking at one of the stained glass windows in the church. Made up of different patterns and colours, each part of the window lit up beautifully as the morning sun shone through.

What a mundane world it would be if everyone was exactly the same as each other: the same personalities, the same taste in clothing, music, food, etc.

Thank God that He created us in His own image and yet He loves us all uniquely as individuals. Even all the hairs on our head are numbered.

I pray all goes well for you as you return to college. May God continue to bless and support you.