Post here when you feel like cutting

[teaspoonofcourage]

Whats the point? we get threw one night to fall the next.

Cos one day it isn't going to control you anymore. That's the sort of life that's waiting...one where you don't think about it all the time. Where when something stresses you, you can say 'it's ok. I'm going to get through this. Nothing and nobody has the right to make me feel like this and I'm not going to let them'.

You know that nights can be really big triggers, so try and make sure you're somewhere safe at night. If it's in your room, have a toy or something you else you can hold where you feel safe. It's got to be something so that you know that when you hold it, you're not going to hurt yourself. Keep counting CIA. You can beat this .

 

[Tenebrae]

yup

 

[lmarie23]

<sigh> i can't do this anymore....

 

[Tenebrae]

lmarie

you can do it. I got through that rocky period without doing it. Just remeber at times its just one foot infront of the other and 5 minutes at a time.....

 

[flying_kiwifruit]

When am I allowed to give up, why can't life just leave me alone. It seems that one bad thing gets sorted then another will happen the next day. I am just confused, frustrated and angry that I let half of all of my problems happen. I just want to yell and scream while letting tears flow down my checks. But I can't for I do not cry ever, I don't yell or scream someone may hear me. I need a silent way of realese, a way no one else will noticed. When will the morning come. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGG.

Just needed to vent cause right now I really really want to.

Nat

 

[mitiog]

I want to hurt myself now. Been battling with anger and self hate. Nothing I do works off the anger. I just don't like myself. Feeling soooooo far away from the Lord it's almost unreal. What do I have to do to get help? I pray like crazy and nothing happens. Went to see my Doc yesterday and he isn't at all concerned about me. He said it's okay to SI. I don't want to tho' becuase I've been there - once I start I won't be able to stop. Help please.

mitiog

 

[BeautifulWorshipper]

I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT...I cant...

 

[lmarie23]

When am I allowed to give up, why can't life just leave me alone. It seems that one bad thing gets sorted then another will happen the next day. I am just confused, frustrated and angry that I let half of all of my problems happen. I just want to yell and scream while letting tears flow down my checks. But I can't for I do not cry ever, I don't yell or scream someone may hear me. I need a silent way of realese, a way no one else will noticed. When will the morning come. ARRRRRRRRRRRGGGGGGGG.

Just needed to vent cause right now I really really want to.

Nat

i'm sorry, but you're never allowed to give up. you have to keep fighting. it's ok to cry though. if you need a friend, i'm here. remember to turn to the Lord, He is your rock when you are struggling....

Lynne

 

[lmarie23]

I want to hurt myself now. Been battling with anger and self hate. Nothing I do works off the anger. I just don't like myself. Feeling soooooo far away from the Lord it's almost unreal. What do I have to do to get help? I pray like crazy and nothing happens. Went to see my Doc yesterday and he isn't at all concerned about me. He said it's okay to SI. I don't want to tho' becuase I've been there - once I start I won't be able to stop. Help please.

mitiog

it's NEVER ok to SI. I can't believe a doctor would say that! it's wrong. remember that God loves you at times when you find it hard to love yourself. sometimes i remind myself of God loving me, of people in my life loving me, and that inspires me to keep fighting, even though i don't want to fight for myself. there's a website i go to that helps me when i'm struggling as well: http://www.palace.net/~llama/psych/injury.html

if you need a friend, i'm here.

hugs,
Lynne

 

[lmarie23]

I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT I WANNA CUT...I cant...

hugs for you.... i hope you stayed strong...

Lynne

 

[Nobility]

Hey Mitiog I understand that it's hard

Theres a list of things that might be able to help you when you need it here: http://www.christianforums.com/t446...o-to-de-escalate-and-divert-an-emergency.html

And if you ever want or need to, you can PM me... I"m praying for you hun

 

[ChristInAction]

wanna cut.
its mums b'day & my grandma forgot (her mum who lives in a granny flat in the backyard) so shes been in a huff since she got home. She always trys to hide it from everyone & acts like it isnt n then get grump, I'm not mad at her about that but now theres another guy over, I dont remember who he is but he was here last night too and shes acting like I hate her b'coz I cant afford to by her anything as I never get money & I havent got a job yet.
Its 8pm I havent ate since lunch time b'coz theres nothing to eat. Theres only bread in the cubored n theres nothing to put on it. I went up to my grandma n grandads house, they havent had dinner yet but granddads off having his affair n wont be home till later n there having meat anyways so I cant have that.
I was suppose 2 be going away this weekend but mum couldnt afford it so I'm not anymore and shes cracked it at me for not being able to go away b'coz she was gonna have 4days without kids as my bro is going to rest-bite.
I've been stressed out all week, we've had a million things due in b'coz its report writting time. I hurt my back this term n had like a week n a half off so I didnt know about half the stuff we had to hand in n I'm gonna fail. I already failed my math test and mums already went off about that.


sorry. this is too long n its stupid.
sorry. xox

 

[Arianna]

CIA
how are things going now?

 

[Arianna]

i need to cut :-(

 

[Bamboo_Chicken]

i need to cut :-(

No you don't Ari...you can do this Hun. I know you can *hug*.

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i havent cut or hurt myself in ages, but my exams and everything have been really stressing me out... so i have been wanting and want to hurt myself

 

[Arianna]

thanks Steffi.
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i really need these thoughts and feelings to stop now but it won't stop :-(

 

[Nobility]

Aw Becky.. I remember my exams and how they REALLY got to me too If you get a chance, please go and do something special for yourself

Ari, Hugs and I'm praying it gets easier for you at the moment hun. God loves you so much

 

[beckybooiloveu]

i tried to treat myself tonight by allowing myself to have a study break to go up to the uni pizza cafe to get an italian hot chocolate... but when I got up there it was closed... obviously i dont deserve it...

 

[Nobility]

Aww hun.. You really do deserve it.

Talking of not deserving... I didn't deserve to get bad KFC either! The chicken, burger and fries were cold, drink was half full and too sugary, and fries were soggy :O I am going to complain to them tomorro!