Post here when you feel like cutting

[flying_kiwifruit]

You have the strenth not to. Inside you know you don't want to, try and keep yourself distracted or talk to some one if you need to

 

[HolyOne87]

I have been cutting for a while and want to now.

aw, whats makes you want to cut?
I will pray God will be there through this trying time you seem to be having.

 

[Jesusfreak4life8629]

I really feel like cutting now......

 

[warrrior4him007]

oka i want to cut im and ive done every thingi can besides call emerncy services

 

[mamalonglegs]

I really feel like cutting now......

You may feel like harming yourself now. That is sad and, yes, frustrating. But it is only a feeling and that can and will pass. Take the time to get on your knees and start praying and don't stop until that "feeling" goes away. You do not have to follow through on what you feel. It's hard but you can hold out until that feeling is gone and choose not to act on it. I find that talking to God when I feel this way until it is gone brings great relief and does it faster than a lot of other ways.
mamalonglegs

 

[mamalonglegs]

oka i want to cut im and ive done every thingi can besides call emerncy services

Have you taken time to put on the full armor of God yet. It tells how in Ephesians chapter 6:11 and verse 12 tells us why we need to do so. Our enemy does not want us to have victory over our mutual self-harming destructing behavior. He likes seeing us down and down and down for the count. But God came to rescue, deliver, and heal us. However, we have to do it His way. We need to pray and ask for His help like it say in Hebrew to go to the throne of grace to obtain grace and mercy in our time of need. I think wanting to harm ourselves is consider a "time of need"!!!!! Then pray that armor on and don't stop praying there keep on and tell the Lord all about it. Ask the Holy Spirit to give the strength needed to win each victory over the desire that is so strong at times. Emergency services is a great help and resource. God works even better once we learn how the spiritual world works. Now is as good a time as ever. Prayer and putting on the armor is a great place to begin. Don't listen to lies but take hold of the Truth about who you are in God's eyes.
mamalonglegs

 

[kathleenmary]

i hate this feeling i just want to do it now soo bad.

 

[mrslisae]

I've had such a frustrating day! All I could think about a few moments ago was cutting but I chose to rub on the ice cube instead. It works!! I haven't actually cut in years...still scratch,bite, etc but today was a full on want to cut so I grabbed the ice...just felt like sharing

 

[ChristInAction]

i dunno what to do! everythings so complicated.
I was trying to make it. i wanna make it without cutting. its so hard. i wanna give in. it sucks. I went 5months last year! now i cant even go more then a week. its a week today. i wanna make it 2 at lest. aw. its so hard.

 

[HolyOne87]

i hate this feeling i just want to do it now soo bad.

fight those urges Kathleen!!!!I know you can!!

 

[HolyOne87]

I've had such a frustrating day! All I could think about a few moments ago was cutting but I chose to rub on the ice cube instead. It works!! I haven't actually cut in years...still scratch,bite, etc but today was a full on want to cut so I grabbed the ice...just felt like sharing

thats great..I am glad and proud of you!! yay

 

[mamalonglegs]

i hate this feeling i just want to do it now soo bad.

You are not ALONE! No one like the feeling of wanting to tear themselves apart nor all the other feelings that come before. It is miserable, ugly, and horrible to deal with. It is also reality. But it doesn't last forever especially if you do not dwell on it in your mind when it comes. The more you think about a thought in your mind, the more real and alive it becomes; and the more it takes your life. The less power you give that thought the more control you have over what enters and stays in your mind. Therefore, when that feeling starts to come say, "No way! Not today! You are not going to wreck my life right now!" Be mean to it as nasty as you can get. Then replace with what you want to have in your mind. Make a list of thoughts and images that are pleasing, calming, and peaceful to quickly put in there instead. It is hard at first but comes handy once you get into the groove. You can get past this. You are strong. You have courage. You are smart. You might not know this yet but you are because you are created in God's image. You say you love Jesus. Well honey, He loves more. He doesn't want to be hurting, broken, and sad. He came to rescue, deliver, and heal you. Stand in His Power and in His Hand.
mamalonglegs

 

[katey]

i feel really bad right now, i've spenmt all day in tears, theres so much going on in my head and its too hard to deal with. i really need to cut right now! i've tried so much to distract myself1 all except going for a run and i can';t do that because its like half twelve at night1 as much as i want to run i dont think it would be a good idea. i dont know what to do

 

[kathleenmary]

thank you so much mamalonglegs. that means so much to me. i will take your advice and use it.

 

[figtvcmpta]

i find myself wanting to cut tonight, and probably will at least look at my tool by the end of the night. ive been wearing long sleeves all day, no particular reason, my scars arent really that showable. but i dont know what is up with tonight. i feel like writing some poetry/song... but no words to express. i just feel like delving into diggin out my crap. but theres no reason why i should feel this way... im kinda confused

 

[mrslisae]

i find myself wanting to cut tonight, and probably will at least look at my tool by the end of the night. ive been wearing long sleeves all day, no particular reason, my scars arent really that showable. but i dont know what is up with tonight. i feel like writing some poetry/song... but no words to express. i just feel like delving into diggin out my crap. but theres no reason why i should feel this way... im kinda confused

Gentle hugs! You stay strong tonight. Poetry always helps me..Maybe you could read over your collection until something comes to mind? Somedays just don't make sense do they?

 

[HolyOne87]

i find myself wanting to cut tonight, and probably will at least look at my tool by the end of the night. ive been wearing long sleeves all day, no particular reason, my scars arent really that showable. but i dont know what is up with tonight. i feel like writing some poetry/song... but no words to express. i just feel like delving into diggin out my crap. but theres no reason why i should feel this way... im kinda confused

maybe trying writing some poetry..if not, maybe just write down random things you are thinking of..so you can put together a poem or song.
I'll pray that you dont cut. Try to fight that urge..

 

[purplepride]

I want to cut all the time, I used to at school until one of the teachers saw me. I had to go to the couselor and all of that crap. NEways I cut like 5 minuts ago, its already stopped bleeding. So Im good. Its something that I cant help anymore.............

 

[mamalonglegs]

i feel really bad right now, i've spenmt all day in tears, theres so much going on in my head and its too hard to deal with. i really need to cut right now! i've tried so much to distract myself1 all except going for a run and i can';t do that because its like half twelve at night1 as much as i want to run i dont think it would be a good idea. i dont know what to do

Having one's head so full that the noise is intolerable is very uncomfortable. Harming yourself will not make that noise go away. So please don't even go there. Distractions and general busyness does not help either. The things I've found that help in this situation is first to pray and ask God to calm and quiet my mind and spirit. Talking with a close friend helps just babbling 'til it works or journeling in the same fashion until you can speak nor write no more. That is you are completely empty and all is quiet. Try it out and when things are better, be sure to thank God for His help.
mamalonglegs

 

[mamalonglegs]

i find myself wanting to cut tonight, and probably will at least look at my tool by the end of the night. ive been wearing long sleeves all day, no particular reason, my scars arent really that showable. but i dont know what is up with tonight. i feel like writing some poetry/song... but no words to express. i just feel like delving into diggin out my crap. but theres no reason why i should feel this way... im kinda confused

I agree with HolyOne87. Start some writing as there is always a reason. You may not be aware of it yet but creative avenues could bring the reason(s) to surface so you can take care of matters and not be quite so uncomfortable.
mamalonglegs