I left the church at the age of fifteen, I had to right? I couldn't obey the ten commandments. All manner of concupiscence had been aroused in me. I was a slave to masturbation so was continually breaking the TC.
But God was so gracious to me. At the age of nineteen he opened my eyes to grace. I suddenly believed I could be a christian after all for my right standing before God hinged on faith I Christ, not my personal goodness/ observing the law. But what of the masturbation? I didn't want it. I left it in Gods hands to deal with and for the first Time in my life stood on a justification of what Christ did for me at Calvary.
For the next three days I was blatantly breaking the TC, but unlike when I was younger I didn't let such behaviour condemn me, j looked to Christ and trusted he was my right standing before God. It wasn't easy, a voice in my head continually told me I was a hypocrite and fooling myself, I could not be a Christian and do what I was doing. But I ignored That voice, and kept trusting I was saved despite the fact i was breaking the TC.
On the fourth day, the masturbation I had been a slave to for six years stopped.
Paul wrote:
For sin shall no longer be your master, for you are not under law( of righteousness) but under grace( a righteousness of faith in Christ)
Rom 6:14
He preached an incredible message, the greatest message ever preached in my view since Christ walked this earth. But sadly, so few are willing to accept it