- Aug 23, 2020
- 1
- 8
- 37
- Country
- Australia
- Gender
- Female
- Faith
- Christian
- Marital Status
- Engaged
Hello to everyone and I hope you're all well.
I have been struggling with illness for many years. It has been permanent (not easing and there every minute of the day) for at least 2 years. I am always completely exhausted and dizzy. I have regular nausea, sweating and overheating. I am usually always in pain - my neck, head, back, jaw etc. I feel too unwell to work and I have poor quality of life. I cry every day. I pray to God almost every day about it. I try to have faith but I wonder if God doesn't hear me or prefers me to be sick as some trial. My life has faded away and my spirit is crushed. I doubt that God exists. I feel like I have never really heard God. I am very confused, always uncomfortable with physical symptoms and of course have a lot of anxiety and depression. I wake up and cry at the thought of another day. I rest after I take a shower because everything feels like so much effort. I can barely get through a day and gave up all my dreams.
I don't want to live anymore with illness, with feeling like I am dying. Doctors think I have multiple autoimmune diseases (some tests are positive) and chronic fatigue syndrome among other things.
Can someone please pray for me as my prayers don't seem to accomplish anything. Also could you please pray that my fiance and I will come to know and believe in God properly and feel like "actual" Christians. Please pray that we will know God and be saved because although I pray every day, I have faith but not belief and I struggle with feeling rejected by Christianity and from being saved due to that. My parents never believed in God. None of my family. Please pray for them too if you can.
I'm sorry I have a lot of requests, but I can't do this anymore. I have lost all of my hope and feel like a dead woman walking. I feel like I'm not in reality, just in a blur of illness. My only experience with Christianity directly is my ex husband who used to hit me and didn't work for many years. He used bible verses against me. I'm now engaged to a good man. He is not Christian but he wants to be. He wants to believe in God. I do too. I identify as Christian but don't feel I believe enough and don't know how.
My mental and physical health are so low. I am addicted to alcohol but my health got no better when I quit. My sins are addiction, gluttony, fornication as I'm not yet married to my fiance (weddings are banned due to covid), sloth as I am too tired to live life properly, not doing my job to my 100% ability, envy of other people's health, anger, bitterness and resentment.. and being self absorbed. I want to let go of the past and the trauma, be healed of the illness and be able to live again to kniw my purpose.
Thank you very much and I pray for peace and purpose for everybody.
I have been struggling with illness for many years. It has been permanent (not easing and there every minute of the day) for at least 2 years. I am always completely exhausted and dizzy. I have regular nausea, sweating and overheating. I am usually always in pain - my neck, head, back, jaw etc. I feel too unwell to work and I have poor quality of life. I cry every day. I pray to God almost every day about it. I try to have faith but I wonder if God doesn't hear me or prefers me to be sick as some trial. My life has faded away and my spirit is crushed. I doubt that God exists. I feel like I have never really heard God. I am very confused, always uncomfortable with physical symptoms and of course have a lot of anxiety and depression. I wake up and cry at the thought of another day. I rest after I take a shower because everything feels like so much effort. I can barely get through a day and gave up all my dreams.
I don't want to live anymore with illness, with feeling like I am dying. Doctors think I have multiple autoimmune diseases (some tests are positive) and chronic fatigue syndrome among other things.
Can someone please pray for me as my prayers don't seem to accomplish anything. Also could you please pray that my fiance and I will come to know and believe in God properly and feel like "actual" Christians. Please pray that we will know God and be saved because although I pray every day, I have faith but not belief and I struggle with feeling rejected by Christianity and from being saved due to that. My parents never believed in God. None of my family. Please pray for them too if you can.
I'm sorry I have a lot of requests, but I can't do this anymore. I have lost all of my hope and feel like a dead woman walking. I feel like I'm not in reality, just in a blur of illness. My only experience with Christianity directly is my ex husband who used to hit me and didn't work for many years. He used bible verses against me. I'm now engaged to a good man. He is not Christian but he wants to be. He wants to believe in God. I do too. I identify as Christian but don't feel I believe enough and don't know how.
My mental and physical health are so low. I am addicted to alcohol but my health got no better when I quit. My sins are addiction, gluttony, fornication as I'm not yet married to my fiance (weddings are banned due to covid), sloth as I am too tired to live life properly, not doing my job to my 100% ability, envy of other people's health, anger, bitterness and resentment.. and being self absorbed. I want to let go of the past and the trauma, be healed of the illness and be able to live again to kniw my purpose.
Thank you very much and I pray for peace and purpose for everybody.