now i KNOW i am called to being "alone" right now...
all the talk of pets and their undying devotion reminds me of the small pooch I had, he was my baby, as was his name. He was so attached to me as I have the tendency to get attached to both humans AND pets! So it worked out fine. But there was a problem. It was much like having a child, having to care for the little one ALL THE TIME - took my attention, my love & affection...hmm...reminds me of my past relationships...

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Well, come to the realization that I had to eventually give him away - couldn't afford to care for him any longer. In the process of this very difficult and trying time, God spoke to me
..."The undivided attention and constant attentiveness towards Baby is what I desire from you. I have caused you to get rid of him to show you this." - was all I heard, was also all I needed and was all God had to do to get MY "attention". Much like the many failed relationships of my past...