I think the hardest part for me now is that I have zero social skills with which to find a wife even if she was a fellow loner and a good match for me. I live in a smallish town and there is not much to do other than hang out at bars. There are some single women around but not a lot. Not being social, I am not going to meet them. I have tried online dating and hate it. I am just living my life, making no effort to meet anyone. Given my lifestyle, it's not likely I will meet anyone. It could happen, but odds are it won't. When I do engage with women, they always think highly of me and say I am good looking, intelligent, super nice, etc, but they never seem to feel a romantic attraction toward me. I am sure I don't give off the right vibe or say or do the right things. Whatever "it" is, I lack it. Other people have no trouble finding dates and partners, although many don't last and are painful. So I am saving myself that. I have now traveled all over alone, although sometimes I meet up with people where I go, but I am not traveling with them. Today is my second-to-last day in Paris before flying home on Thursday. I was in Paris for 4 days, the Czech Republic for 5, and now 2.5 days in Paris. I was with some fellow photographers in the Czech Republic but alone both times in Paris.