I think im done with god.

[vinsight4u]

/nvm

 

[disciple1]

My friend snapping did it for me. Its like God never wants to see me happy, I've been lonely all my life...I'm just like if you can't find it in your heart to give me a friend to keep me company ...could you yourself at least talk to me.

I've asked for years to hear God speak to me or feel his presence...something! And I got nothing...

Nothing. I asked , I tried..and still nothing.

I try to do the right thing, with my aunt at her church...but I just got treated badly for it... Even when we moved out of the hotels my mom got in a freaking car accident...

And my only friend who I loved so much descended into madness, 3 years...gone just like that. ( Why let my friend descend into madness? Why couldn't he be blessed with a sound mind like alot of people? Why? I tried to make friends with a girl at work and she hasn't t3xted back,...so its like I can't have anything )

Why does God just pick on some people?

Why is God so jealous he can't stand to see me genuinely happy..with or without him... I tried to get close but he does nothing...so its like I can't have anything... Not HIM, not friends, not a job...nothing...

What's the point? And I hear about my other f4lends and how well they're doing ..one is going to make 1000 a week.. And she's younger than me... ..

And I'm just like am I just here as Gods special punching bag? When he gets mad...its time to mess with me?

I'm over it....

I don't think I can love a god like this.
I'm so close to telling God go f**** yourself.,.

Bc I never did anything to Him except try to be close and I won't try anymore...I'm not ...I'm done.

I mean what's the point so I can reach out and God can be silent some more? I think I've learned my lesson.

Maybe you should try this, it worked for me, but remember most people in church or on here aren't doing it.
Matthew chapter 4 verse 4
Jesus answered, "It is written: 'Man shall not live on bread alone, but on every word that comes from the mouth of God.'"
Romans chapter 1 verse 28
Furthermore, just as they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, so God gave them over to a depraved mind, so that they do what ought not to be done.

John chapter 8 verse 31,32
To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, " If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.
2 John
9 Anyone who runs ahead and does not continue in the teaching of Christ does not have God; whoever continues in the teaching has both the Father and the Son.
Job chapter 23 verse 12
I have not departed from the commands of his lips; I have treasured the words of his mouth more than my daily bread.

Matthew 11
28 “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. 29 Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. 30 For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”
Luke chapter 21
33 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.
Romans chapter 10
17 Consequently, faith comes from hearing the message, and the message is heard through the word about Christ.
Mark chapter 13
31 Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.
James chapter 1
25 But whoever looks intently into the perfect law that gives freedom, and continues in it—not forgetting what they have heard, but doing it—they will be blessed in what they do.
James chapter 4
8 Come near to God and he will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.
Isaiah chapter 45 verse 19
I have not spoken in secret, from somewhere in a land of darkness; I have not said to Jacob's descendants, 'Seek me in vain.' I, the LORD, speak the truth; I declare what is right.
Jeremiah chapter 9
24 but let the one who boasts boast about this:
that they have the understanding to know me,
that I am the Lord, who exercises kindness,
justice and righteousness on earth,
for in these I delight,”
declares the Lord.
Jeremiah chapter 5 verse 1
5 “Go up and down the streets of Jerusalem,
look around and consider,
search through her squares.
If you can find but one person
who deals honestly and seeks the truth,
I will forgive this city.

 

[GirdYourLoins]

Im going to keep this as short as I can which will mean its very to the point. this is not intended to be critical, but just not too long.

Are you saved?

Are you filled with the Holy Spirit?

Do you believe in your heart that Jesus Christ is the Son of God who came to earth, lived a sinless life, was crucified as the sacrifice of God to make atonement for all our sin, was resurrected victorious over sin and death?

Have you made Jesus Lord and Saviour in your life?

Have you accepted God as your loving Father?

If the answer to any of these questions is no, then you need to pray and declare them over your life.

 

[Petros2015]

but I'm still done with God...

It's tricky to walk away from something that is inside you. How will that make things better? Turning your back on your soul. It's as painful and contorted as it sounds.

God is Love. Are you done with that?
God is Truth. Are you done with that?
God is Life. Are you done with that?

What's Plan B here exactly...? Because if it involves collapsing into a black hole of self centeredness, I can tell you pretty definitively that it doesn't work, even if you apply copious amounts of alcohol or other sins. "My friend went insane". Mine did too. So did I. But it wasn't seeking God that did that. It was turning our backs on Him.

Face God and your shadow will be behind you where it belongs. Move towards Him, things will be better. Walk away from God, and your shadow will fall over everything you try to move towards. You can not walk away from the author of Love, Peace, Sanity and Truth and every other good thing and expect things to get better. They don't. Screaming on the phone is probably a good example of just how bad things get.

This was the fellow that you were trying to end the non-Platonic relationship with, wasn't it? He probably was trying to make you 'God', the source of meaning, validation, 'love', etc. It doesn't work and he couldn't handle it when you told him No. Then suddenly he hated you for not being what he wanted (and needed) for you to be. He'll stop screaming when he seeks God first. You'll start if you don't.

Just my 2 cents worth, learned it the hard way.

God bless you

 

[JESUS=G.O.A.T]

My friend snapping did it for me. Its like God never wants to see me happy, I've been lonely all my life...I'm just like if you can't find it in your heart to give me a friend to keep me company ...could you yourself at least talk to me.

I've asked for years to hear God speak to me or feel his presence...something! And I got nothing...

Nothing. I asked , I tried..and still nothing.

I try to do the right thing, with my aunt at her church...but I just got treated badly for it... Even when we moved out of the hotels my mom got in a freaking car accident...

And my only friend who I loved so much descended into madness, 3 years...gone just like that. ( Why let my friend descend into madness? Why couldn't he be blessed with a sound mind like alot of people? Why? I tried to make friends with a girl at work and she hasn't t3xted back,...so its like I can't have anything )

Why does God just pick on some people?

Why is God so jealous he can't stand to see me genuinely happy..with or without him... I tried to get close but he does nothing...so its like I can't have anything... Not HIM, not friends, not a job...nothing...

What's the point? And I hear about my other f4lends and how well they're doing ..one is going to make 1000 a week.. And she's younger than me... ..

And I'm just like am I just here as Gods special punching bag? When he gets mad...its time to mess with me?

I'm over it....

I don't think I can love a god like this.
I'm so close to telling God go f**** yourself.,.

Bc I never did anything to Him except try to be close and I won't try anymore...I'm not ...I'm done.

I mean what's the point so I can reach out and God can be silent some more? I think I've learned my lesson.

Just wondering have you considered being baptized in JESUS name? IK for a lot it tends to help them move forward better.

Also think about some like Job and Paul and waht they went through i'm not comparing you to them spiritually, but just you know circumstance wise.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

Just wondering have you considered being baptized in JESUS name? IK for a lot it tends to help them move forward better.

Also think about some like Job and Paul and waht they went through i'm not comparing you to them spiritually, but just you know circumstance wise.

I've been baptized since 2010. It has made my anxiety easier.

 

[Sam91]

Right, as to a believer needs to stand on their faith. The
Bible tells us that without faith it is impossible to please Him. Don't get hung up on thinking everybody's life is wonderful - or most people have a great life. Why not you too? You don't know what people are going through. Many years ago, and even only a few years back - had health problems. God the Greatest Physician healed me, so I thank Him. I give Him all the praises and the glory.
Was fine, had a nice job, living in my dream location- since I had been young, but that was all about to change. All it took was just one night of for a few moments getting covered in Medfly spray. I had said a quick - few words of prayer before going outside, yet
that goo was very hard to get off of me, and was trying to mostly help a child first get cleaned up. Did not think that the next day when I began fainting and near fainting at work and other places that well, God didn't love me, doesn't answer my prayers. No, His plan was to become a testimony to doctors and such that would over the next several years watch miracles take place that only He could bring to pass. Yes, there was a lot of pain, but even doctors have told me that I have a high tolerance to it. One heart doctor at UCLA kept telling me how amazed he was at the way I could stand pain. So, we could see that God was still working and helping me through that hard time in my life.
The NT tells us to be content with what we have -for He will never leave us nor forsake us.

Hebrews 13:5

“Let your conversation be without covetousness; and be content with such things as ye have: for he hath said, I will never leave thee, nor forsake thee.”

So true. My life shouldn't be easy. I lost my partner to cancer 17 months ago, my gran died this time last year, my brother died last month age 30. I have a chronic health condition, no family in my country, unemployed atm, got a 2k funeral needing paying very soon and the other 1k is on my credit card. 3 kids and I dnt get a minute quiet all day when I really need physical rest atm and I only have one friend I talk to frequently. Lots of acquaintances but I'm an introvert so find it hard making the next step.

I am not saying this to want sympathy, just to show you don't know what people are facing. I actually feel so much joy and contentment and feel really blessed. The Lord has shown me how to rely on Him and that is why my life is joyous.

Please don't give up. You can do this, feel this too I have some really decent sermons on how to trust God in any circumstances. Can find them if you want <3

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

It's tricky to walk away from something that is inside you. How will that make things better? Turning your back on your soul. It's as painful and contorted as it sounds.

God is Love. Are you done with that?
God is Truth. Are you done with that?
God is Life. Are you done with that?

What's Plan B here exactly...? Because if it involves collapsing into a black hole of self centeredness, I can tell you pretty definitively that it doesn't work, even if you apply copious amounts of alcohol or other sins. "My friend went insane". Mine did too. So did I. But it wasn't seeking God that did that. It was turning our backs on Him.

Face God and your shadow will be behind you where it belongs. Move towards Him, things will be better. Walk away from God, and your shadow will fall over everything you try to move towards. You can not walk away from the author of Love, Peace, Sanity and Truth and every other good thing and expect things to get better. They don't. Screaming on the phone is probably a good example of just how bad things get.

This was the fellow that you were trying to end the non-Platonic relationship with, wasn't it? He probably was trying to make you 'God', the source of meaning, validation, 'love', etc. It doesn't work and he couldn't handle it when you told him No. Then suddenly he hated you for not being what he wanted (and needed) for you to be. He'll stop screaming when he seeks God first. You'll start if you don't.

Just my 2 cents worth, learned it the hard way.

God bless you

To be honest, You're so right. Him having a break down is a very good example of how bad things can get.... In still really really mad at God... I'm just tired of "crawling back" when I feel I've done nothing wrong... I'm tired of feeling like I always did something wrong, but not getting anything I want has made me just want to take to hand off my own wheel...if that makes sense.

But it angers me because its not fair ..i feel I have to actually do what the bible says while others can do what they want. Not talking about unbelievers but other Christians..they can have a half ***** walk and still be blessed, some people don't try at all and are still blessed...why do I have to put in 120% effort? Why just me?

 

[JESUS=G.O.A.T]

I've been baptized since 2010. It has made my anxiety easier.

k that's good.


Coming from someone who I can't say went through as much as you but at least emotionally went through as much to where I would talk bad about God. What I had to do next was seek the holy spirit and give up certian things. I sought the holy spirit at some convention and I got the holy spirit but in an amazing way, started speaking in tounques and ever since i've felt more powerful and sure of God. I preach and i'm a musician now.


But yeah besides simply seeking God seek the indwelling of his holy spirit as well.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

So true. My life shouldn't be easy. I lost my partner to cancer 17 months ago, my gran died this time last year, my brother died last month age 30. I have a chronic health condition, no family in my country, unemployed atm, got a 2k funeral needing paying very soon and the other 1k is on my credit card. 3 kids and I dnt get a minute quiet all day when I really need physical rest atm and I only have one friend I talk to frequently. Lots of acquaintances but I'm an introvert so find it hard making the next step.

I am not saying this to want sympathy, just to show you don't know what people are facing. I actually feel so much joy and contentment and feel really blessed. The Lord has shown me how to rely on Him and that is why my life is joyous.

Please don't give up. You can do this, feel this too I have some really decent sermons on how to trust God in any circumstances. Can find them if you want <3

Well what all do you do to feel that joy?

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

But yeah besides simply seeking God seek the indwelling of his holy spirit as well.

How?

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

So true. My life shouldn't be easy. I lost my partner to cancer 17 months ago, my gran died this time last year, my brother died last month age 30. I have a chronic health condition, no family in my country, unemployed atm, got a 2k funeral needing paying very soon and the other 1k is on my credit card. 3 kids and I dnt get a minute quiet all day when I really need physical rest atm and I only have one friend I talk to frequently. Lots of acquaintances but I'm an introvert so find it hard making the next step.

I am not saying this to want sympathy, just to show you don't know what people are facing. I actually feel so much joy and contentment and feel really blessed. The Lord has shown me how to rely on Him and that is why my life is joyous.

Please don't give up. You can do this, feel this too I have some really decent sermons on how to trust God in any circumstances. Can find them if you want <3

Yeah I would like those sermons if u don't mind

 

[vinsight4u]

/nvm

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

Im going to keep this as short as I can which will mean its very to the point. this is not intended to be critical, but just not too long.

Are you saved?

Are you filled with the Holy Spirit?

Do you believe in your heart that Jesus Christ is the Son of God who came to earth, lived a sinless life, was crucified as the sacrifice of God to make atonement for all our sin, was resurrected victorious over sin and death?

Have you made Jesus Lord and Saviour in your life?

Have you accepted God as your loving Father?

If the answer to any of these questions is no, then you need to pray and declare them over your life.

Yes since 2010.

 

[Sam91]

Well what all do you do to feel that joy?

The things i have been saying. I also have learned to see God's hand in everything and also write down some prayers. I keep a journal but i try to make it full of the things I am grateful and thank God for them. I came to understand who I am in Christ and noticed the rewards for being like a child humbly obeying Him in the strength He gave.

You make one humble step in His direction and He takes you the rest of the way.

You are really low right now but when He picks you up, when you rely on Him you will have a powerful testimony to give Him the Glory with. You want me to find these sermons or can it wait until tomorrow? Im in my bed and was going to go to sleep half hour ago. There Charles Stanley ones. He speaks so lovingly. I don't agree with 100% of what he says but I find most is very sound and it helps us understand the small ways we makes our life harder than it should be.

This could be much longer, i hope I covered the important bits but im overtired now and fuzzy brained

God bless. <3

 

[W2L]

To be honest, You're so right. Him having a break down is a very good example of how bad things can get.... In still really really mad at God... I'm just tired of "crawling back" when I feel I've done nothing wrong... I'm tired of feeling like I always did something wrong, but not getting anything I want has made me just want to take to hand off my own wheel...if that makes sense.

But it angers me because its not fair ..i feel I have to actually do what the bible says while others can do what they want. Not talking about unbelievers but other Christians..they can have a half ***** walk and still be blessed, some people don't try at all and are still blessed...why do I have to put in 120% effort? Why just me?

Acts 14:22 ....“We must through many tribulations enter the kingdom of God.”

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

The things i have been saying. I also have learned to see God's hand in everything and also write down some prayers. I keep a journal but i try to make it full of the things I am grateful and thank God for them. I came to understand who I am in Christ and noticed the rewards for being like a child humbly obeying Him in the strength He gave.

You make one humble step in His direction and He takes you the rest of the way.

You are really low right now but when He picks you up, when you rely on Him you will have a powerful testimony to give Him the Glory with. You want me to find these sermons or can it wait until tomorrow? Im in my bed and was going to go to sleep half hour ago. There Charles Stanley ones. He speaks so lovingly. I don't agree with 100% of what he says but I find most is very sound and it helps us understand the small ways we makes our life harder than it should be.

This could be much longer, i hope I covered the important bits but im overtired now and fuzzy brained

God bless. <3

You can sle3p don't worry about me.

 

[Far Side Of the Moon]

Acts 14:22 ....“We must through many tribulations enter the kingdom of God.”

The only way for me to trust in God is not expect anything from Him...nothing...because it hurts too much just to end up disappointed.

 

[Sam91]

You can sle3p don't worry about me.

https://www.intouch.org/watch/when-adversity-strikes/thanksgiving-in-the-midst-of-adversity

https://www.intouch.org/watch/when-adversity-strikes/in-the-midst-of-adversity

These aren't the ones I was thinking of but I can find those tomorrow. I hope these help. I really do. I hope you feel better soon.

God bless you loads dear sister.

 

[W2L]

The only way for me to trust in God is not expect anything from Him...nothing...because it hurts too much just to end up disappointed.

It takes time to grow, but God is patient and so we must be patient too. I use to be where you are, i was very frustrated, but somehow i learned to lean on God, in all my weakness, anxiety and fear. We must persevere. May i recommend trying to lean on the Lord, with or without words. Let your heart do the talking. Share your pain with Him and cast your frustration out of your mind. Persevere sister. Be patient. Be still, and wait on God.