Hello all! This is my first post as I have been searching for advice from people who do not personally know me, so that I can see things from a different perspective.Please help me as I have a lot of inner turmoil going on and my spirit is very chaotic right now.
BACKSTORY: I have grown up Christian and in the church all of my life so has my husband. We met in high school and he has been the only person I ever dated. Ever. I began to have feelings of doubt. I wasn’t sure if I was still in love with him and I wanted to explore on my own, and figure out who I was as a person individually because I was in college at the time. I pushed it aside because even though I wasn’t happy, I didn’t want to hurt his feelings because I knew how much he loved and cared for me.We had been together since we were 15 and at this point I was 21. I ended up pregnant and felt that I had no choice but to be with him then because I wanted our daughter to grow up the way I did, in a 2 parent home. Shortly after, he proposed and I said yes as to not disappoint our families and him. During our engagement period I cried, a lot . I wasn’t happy and wanted out of the engagement. I kept telling myself this is what God wants for me and to suck it up. We got married, and I have tried to suck it up because my husband is an awesome husband and an amazing father.
Now:About 2 months after getting married, my husband tells me that he no longer believes in Jesus and The Bible, and is really questioning Christianity and God as a whole. We are trying to work through this but he is very condescending when I try to offer solutions to help us. He says he is confused and lost, and doesn’t know what is right and what is wrong.
I know this sounds cruel, but I want to use this as an excuse to divorce and no longer be married to him. I’ve wanted to leave since I was 21, but I didn’t want to hurt his feelings and he was all I’ve ever known, I have become comfortable with him.I was afraid of something new and I was afraid of change. I believe I grew up so early and did not get a chance to truly live my life as a young adult. Does this make me a selfish & unchristian person? Do I stay and accept my decisions ? I am 25 by the way.
BACKSTORY: I have grown up Christian and in the church all of my life so has my husband. We met in high school and he has been the only person I ever dated. Ever. I began to have feelings of doubt. I wasn’t sure if I was still in love with him and I wanted to explore on my own, and figure out who I was as a person individually because I was in college at the time. I pushed it aside because even though I wasn’t happy, I didn’t want to hurt his feelings because I knew how much he loved and cared for me.We had been together since we were 15 and at this point I was 21. I ended up pregnant and felt that I had no choice but to be with him then because I wanted our daughter to grow up the way I did, in a 2 parent home. Shortly after, he proposed and I said yes as to not disappoint our families and him. During our engagement period I cried, a lot . I wasn’t happy and wanted out of the engagement. I kept telling myself this is what God wants for me and to suck it up. We got married, and I have tried to suck it up because my husband is an awesome husband and an amazing father.
Now:About 2 months after getting married, my husband tells me that he no longer believes in Jesus and The Bible, and is really questioning Christianity and God as a whole. We are trying to work through this but he is very condescending when I try to offer solutions to help us. He says he is confused and lost, and doesn’t know what is right and what is wrong.
I know this sounds cruel, but I want to use this as an excuse to divorce and no longer be married to him. I’ve wanted to leave since I was 21, but I didn’t want to hurt his feelings and he was all I’ve ever known, I have become comfortable with him.I was afraid of something new and I was afraid of change. I believe I grew up so early and did not get a chance to truly live my life as a young adult. Does this make me a selfish & unchristian person? Do I stay and accept my decisions ? I am 25 by the way.