Neo, I will be 69 this month, so I assume I am older than you. I believed in Jesus around the age of seven, so that's a pretty long time. But, I did have a period of time when I stepped out from under his umbrella of protection over my life, and when I did some pretty horrible things, but by his grace, he brought me back, and 7 years later, I disobeyed him again, but he brought me back again, and two years later he gave me this present ministry.
The calling he put on my life, which was really his calling on my life even before I was born, even before he created the world, is to write down what he teaches me on my computer and to place it on the internet so that the internet can "runwithit," which is the name of the ministry he has given me (based off Habakkuk 2:2-3).
So, for the past 14 years I have been doing just that. Every day I wake up with a song in my head, which is either a song someone else has written, or is a song the Lord has given me to write, and the song then goes along with wherever I am reading in scripture for that day, which the past year has been basically in sync with the daily readings on Bible Gateway, but a larger swath of scripture than what they share.
I read the passage of scripture (the whole chapter) and then I look at the lyrics to the song, and I see how the two are related, and then I just ask the Lord to teach me from his word, and then I just write what he teaches me and I post it here and on several blogs the Lord has given me. 7 years ago, half-way through the 14 years, he also gave me the gift of writing spiritual (biblically-based) songs. And, he gives me poems to write, too. And, I post all of those on the internet, as well.
But, at the foundation of all of this is that I must daily walk with my Lord in fellowship with him, in obedience to his commands, in surrender of my will to his will, and I must walk in his holiness and righteousness and no longer according to the ways of my sinful flesh. I know that if I am to do the will of God for my life, my heart and life must be sold out to him, holding nothing back. I must be willing to do and to say whatever it is he gives me to do and to say, even if I get hated, rejected, mistreated, misquoted, slandered, and falsely accused in return (see call of Jeremiah chapter 1).
So, if you want to know God's will for your life, stop the video games and get on your knees and pray and repent of all sins in your life and surrender your all to him completely, holding nothing back. Then follow him wherever he leads you and do whatever it is he commands you to do, and then leave the results in his hands. But he will not ask you to do anything contrary to the teachings of his word or against his moral character or against his divine will for our lives.
You obviously know how to write and how to use a computer, so use it for the glory of God. Also, follow the will of God that you do know, that is already written down for us in God's Word. Bathe your mind now on the Word of God instead of on the junk of this world and let His Word speak to you. And, then obey what he shows you. And, you will know his will, because you will be doing his will, and so you will hear his voice clearly.
Mrs. Sue Love, mother of 4 (+4) and grandmother of 14, ages 7 mos. to 20 years.