Thanks for your reply, shortygreyhere.
It's good to hear that you have overcome a similar problem.
I am ready for the help and will do anything you tell me.
Sinan
Hi Sinan,
I don't want you to do "anything" I tell you, but please give it a chance.
I have a lot of things going on today that will keep my from replying later today. Regardless of whatever conversations we have going forward, I want to convince you that suicide is in no way any kind of an out.
Here is the first potential challenge to your belief system. Suicide is not any kind of a good option. It is highly probable that if you die, you will go to hell. I don't believe that is a risk anyone should take. The bible does not teach purgatory (please see this article:
What does the Bible say about Purgatory? and recall that Jesus said to the thief on the cross, who was not baptized, "today you will be with me in paradise." And we know that Jesus is not a liar).
If you were to go to hell, here are some things you could expect:
Knowing that your family and friends do not know you are in hell, wishing you could warn them, but being unable to
Existing without the breath of life from God which gives life to all living things for all eternity
No presence of God for all eternity
No love for all eternity
No hope for all eternity
Being in isolation without any human contact for all eternity
Being eaten by worms for all eternity because you will exist forever being eaten
Being burned in a lake of fire for all eternity because you will exist forever being burned
Being tormented by demons for all eternity
Being in total darkness for all eternity; see what total darkness does to humans on Earth:
Isolation in the Dark Drives Humans to Brink of Insanity, Studies Find (these people could sleep, but no one is going to be sleeping in hell)
No rest or sleep for all eternity
Unbearable thirst that will never be quenched, not even with a drop of water, for all eternity
When people are in God's presence, they report love and light, those who have been in the presence of evil, often report a sense of darkness, dread, and fear. You would live in darkness, dread, and fear of unimaginable intensity for all eternity.
I believe this list to be scriptural, although I have not provided the references. You can look up bible verses about hell on the internet for biblical texts.