Isaiah 55:7
Let the wicked forsake his way And the unrighteous man his thoughts; And let him return to the LORD, And He will have compassion on him, And to our God, For He will abundantly pardon.
“I found God and I learned what the Holy Spirit was and what It did in my life. I had really never felt better than ever before, it felt as if I became a new human being. I
started walking, talking, thinking and doing everything in a new way. I was so happy that I found God and wanted to become a better person after He'd shown me that I was a great sinner before.”
"start" again and continue in it. You stopped walking.
Rekindle your relationship with the Lord. Study His word (this is how he speaks to you), meditate on it. Pray for knowledge and understanding. Pray to the Lord to remove evil thoughts from you
every single time you have one. Remove yourself from every person, place or thing that brings temptation. Do not expect instant miracles and or visions as even the evil one manifests himself in these things. Drugs do not produce miracles from God and leave the door wide open to evil thoughts and actions. You say you have had "revelations" while on drugs? Hmmmmm, really? Think about this, if you believe this then what is the result? Oh yeah .... do more drugs (which are destructive) .... this is not Gods revelation to you .... this is the evil one influencing your thinking to do more drugs (including alcohol) to receive more "false revelations". Where in Gods word does it teach to take drugs or the like to have a revelation? Any "revelation" must be in harmony with Gods word.
Psalm 27, Verse 4
14Wait for the LORD;
Be strong and let your heart take courage;
Yes, wait for the LORD.
How long do you wait? As long as it takes for it to happen and it will happen. The Lord is faithful. While you are “waiting” fill yourself with His truth by prayer and studying His word. Start every day with Him, walk with him during the day, end your day with Him.
You say you love sin? Yet, you are experiencing the consequences/results of your love for it (sin) which is being destructive to you.
Fall back in love with Jesus as you once were.
The Christian life is a walk. It is a slow process that happens as you pursue it. Your walk continues throughout your entire life. You will slip up …. but confess, repent and keep focused on Jesus and keep walking.
The Apostle Paul wrote this: (Romans 7, 13-25)
Struggling with Sin
13Did that which is good, then, become death to me? Certainly not! But in order that sin might be exposed as sin, it produced death in me through what was good, so that through the commandment sin might become utterly sinful.
14We know that the Law is spiritual; but I am unspiritual, sold as a slave to sin.
15I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do, I do not do. But what I hate, I do.
16And if I do what I do not desire, I admit that the Law is good.
17In that case, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
18I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, in my flesh; for I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out.
19For I do not do the good I want to do. Instead, I keep on doing the evil I do not want to do.
20And if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.
21So this is the principle I have discovered: When I want to do good, evil is right there with me.
22For in my inner being I delight in God’s Law.
23But I see another law at work in my body, warring against the law of my mind and holding me captive to the law of sin that dwells within me.
24What a wretched man I am! Who will rescue me from this body of death?
25Thanks be to God, through Jesus Christ our Lord!
Even so, the Apostle Paul kept walking with Jesus .... his entire life.
Psalm 116 1-2
1I love the LORD, because He hears
My voice
and my supplications.
2 Because He has inclined His ear to me,
Therefore I shall call upon Him as long as I live.
AMEN!
Galnaros, post: 71982688, member: 392890"]Hello all,
I have already shared my story on this forum somewhere about a year ago. I'm still stuck in the same predicament and I've been wondering if I have committed the unpardonable sin. To summarize my story: I was depressed, as an atheist, around the later part of 2015. Then I prayed, because I was so desperate and my prayer was answered. I found God and I learned what the Holy Spirit was and what It did in my life. I had really never felt better than ever before, it felt as if I became a new human being. I started walking,talking, thinking and doing everything in a new way. I was so happy that I found God and wanted to become a better person after He'd shown me that I was a great sinner before.
Then I started backsliding, severely, and ignoring the revelations and guidance of the Holy Spirit. I didn't want to do certain things that God wanted me to do, because that meant giving up on sin. So I started to love sin again and was a great partaker in it. I kept doing this until my mind got, what I believe is called 'reprobated'. Emotionally flat, no interest in anything, mentally turned inwards and hella confused, concentration and sleeping problems. Summarized: I have nothing left to live for, I don't even love my closest family anymore.
Life is so hard right now and I can't take it much longer. All of this writing doesn't come from actual despair, I don't feel anything at all. I don't even seem to care about God and my past sins anymore, my conscience is seared and it doesn't stop.
I quit smoking weed and drinking alcohol 3 weeks ago , but it hasn't changed anything for me. Hebrews 6 4-6 isn't even bothering me anymore even though I know I fit the picture and I certainly can't be returned to a repentant state. I have rejected the gift of salvation and I'm therefor hellbound. I even saw a part of me slipping into a great red wall of fire when I was on a shrooms trip áfter I had lost the Holy Spirit or close to the end of losing It and I actually felt the heat for a brief moment. I took these shrooms because I wanted to get another revelation. I heard my parents cry that I was gone and then saw that part of me sinking in a pit of fire. I was ungrateful, only loved sin after I had been born again and I'm a terrible person.
Also, there is no actual hatred of self anymore, I don't have to 'forgive myself',because I don't even feel that there's something to forgive. As if I have forgotten about everything I've done in the past. My mind is a mess.
So my question is: Can I fix this situation or am I done here and should I just accept my fate?[/QUOTE]