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I have been married 13 years. During our 13 years marriage, communication has been a major factor in the disruption of our union. I feel unequally yoked in that aspect. We've tried Christian counselors, military chaplains, etc...
Recently, I tried to open up to my wife and share with her the depression I've been going through. It wasn't easy for me to do. I'm lacking in my abillity to share my thoughts and feelings. I think mainly due to hurt.
We received a gun from my wifes Dad, that I really wasn't to happy about. I pondered and planned suicide from age 12. I believe it was my easy way out of hurt as a child.
Well, 5 months ago, I gave the gun to a friend to hold onto for me, because it was too easy of an out for me. I felt it was the responsible thing to do. The day the gun was given to him, my wife was harassing me to get it back. I wonder how she knew it was gone? She hasn't stopped harassing me to get it back. I felt I needed to share with her why I gave it to him to hold onto.
I really felt she understood when we had a discussion late at night. I opened my all and let her in my window of hurt only to get hurt again. The next day, she told me she was going to get the gun back, and took everything I said out of context...again.
I went to my bible study the other night and my friend (who cares for me more than my own spouse) told me she was heading over to pick up the gun.
This deeply troubles and saddens me.
She acted like nothing was wrong the next two days, all the while I was shut down. When she confronted me and asked me what was wrong, my initial response was nothing...why explain...it'll just be taken out of context.
Persistent she was, and I explained to her I didn't appreciate the fact I shared my heart with her and she picked the gun up anyways. Only to be met with name calling, "You're childish, Grow UP! Get a life! I wish your friends could see you now! I can't trust any of your friends!" Yelling.
Do I have a right to be upset? I feel so unequally yoked in our marriage, and lonely. Sadly, she obviously does too because 1 1/2 years ago, she elected to stop her birth control and have another child without telling me she stopped protection.
Any prayers, advice, or opinions welcomed.
I have been married 13 years. During our 13 years marriage, communication has been a major factor in the disruption of our union. I feel unequally yoked in that aspect. We've tried Christian counselors, military chaplains, etc...
Recently, I tried to open up to my wife and share with her the depression I've been going through. It wasn't easy for me to do. I'm lacking in my abillity to share my thoughts and feelings. I think mainly due to hurt.
We received a gun from my wifes Dad, that I really wasn't to happy about. I pondered and planned suicide from age 12. I believe it was my easy way out of hurt as a child.
Well, 5 months ago, I gave the gun to a friend to hold onto for me, because it was too easy of an out for me. I felt it was the responsible thing to do. The day the gun was given to him, my wife was harassing me to get it back. I wonder how she knew it was gone? She hasn't stopped harassing me to get it back. I felt I needed to share with her why I gave it to him to hold onto.
I really felt she understood when we had a discussion late at night. I opened my all and let her in my window of hurt only to get hurt again. The next day, she told me she was going to get the gun back, and took everything I said out of context...again.
I went to my bible study the other night and my friend (who cares for me more than my own spouse) told me she was heading over to pick up the gun.
This deeply troubles and saddens me.
She acted like nothing was wrong the next two days, all the while I was shut down. When she confronted me and asked me what was wrong, my initial response was nothing...why explain...it'll just be taken out of context.
Persistent she was, and I explained to her I didn't appreciate the fact I shared my heart with her and she picked the gun up anyways. Only to be met with name calling, "You're childish, Grow UP! Get a life! I wish your friends could see you now! I can't trust any of your friends!" Yelling.
Do I have a right to be upset? I feel so unequally yoked in our marriage, and lonely. Sadly, she obviously does too because 1 1/2 years ago, she elected to stop her birth control and have another child without telling me she stopped protection.
Any prayers, advice, or opinions welcomed.