You're too kind, sister, but it's not the fault of those around me. This falls on me. My wife and I had been losing weight with the South Beach Diet for weeks. I went from 272 lbs. to 257 lbs in a matter of a few weeks. I was feeling great, excited, full of energy, and finally, after 5-6 years of gaining weight and feeling like garbage, was doing something about it. You have to eat lots of cheese, yogurt, some chicken (hard for me, a vegetarian), fish, shrimp, salads, etc. Grains get SLOOOOOWLY introduced and things like oatmeal and legumes...SLOOOOOOWLY.....it's a diet that seeks to really kick out the sugar and steadily bring back healthy carbs.
And my wife lost 16 lbs!
Then BAMMMMMM Great Lent comes. The ultimate monkey wrench in our healthy crusade.
So now I'm trying to tell myself, justify, why on Earth God would want me to pack back on the weight and spin my wheels? Maybe it's the Devil talking, maybe it's common sense. Heck, I don't know.
But Father told us he'd allow us to have yogurt and fish on top of the shrimp, etc. but zero eggs and no meat (obviously) and other things.
He did say we could eat up the remainder of what we had in the fridge.
Father was generous.
So what did I do? I started fasting a bit, and the weight started creeping back for a bit, then I just stayed where I was.
We're trying to drop weight for the Greece trip. It was our goal.
So I started eating eggs when Kate brought them home, and cheese, and then went to science camp and took advantage of the situation.
This all falls on me trying to make a healthier me. Eating a ton of lentils, oatmeal, breads, and starches for Great Lent will wipe out all I've accomplished.
So, I'm just at a point of extreme guilt and self-loathing. I am considering going to Pre-Sanctified this Wednesday and confessing and starting over. Then part of me says, "wonderful, now back to being fat....."
I've looked long and hard for a livable diet that will help me get off my blood pressure meds, feeling lousy about my weight, and to get me back to the old me. Lent is more of a barrier to it than anything right now...I'm sad to say.
Prayers would be appreciated.
Hope everyone doesn't hate me too much here...I'm one lousy example of an Orthodox Christian this season. Great Lent is a powerful, heck, the most important, fast of the year...and I'm just pathetic. During the Nativity Fast I put on 6 lbs. alone. I dread lents now. My body hates carbs!
I don't think I can imagine anything much harder than being with a crowd of kids who are not keeping the fast , and are away from home and trying very hard to keep the Fast and all it entails !
For goodness sake Gurney - be reasonable ! There was no way you could have done it - well not completely
Now you are home - give yourself a shake and start again [ says she who is also having problems with the fast ]