Am I wasting my time seeking God? I am a nonpracticing homosexual. I believe in scripture that calls sin by what it is. I hate my sin. I struggle with lust, but I do not act on my lusts. Pastor Steven Anderson does not believe gays can be saved. This is sad. But I will continue pray for his mercy. But I wonder if I am wasting my time.
ABOVE ALL....DO NOT listen to what people say about homosexuality, listen to Jesus Christ, the Word of God Himself, because it was God who originally called homosexuality an abomination in the first place...
But as it is written "where sin abounded, Grace abounded even MORE..."
Matthew 12:31
"Therefore I say to you, ANY sin and blasphemy shall be forgiven people, but blasphemy against the Spirit shall not be forgiven"
Jesus said that ANY sin you confess in humility toward Him, He will take upon HIMSELF to both forgive and cleanse you from....
1 John 1:9
"If we confess our sins He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from ALL unrighteousness."
THIS IS A PROMISE FROM ALMIGHTY GOD HIMSELF, and as it is written..
"It is GOD (not us!) who works IN us both to DESIRE and to DO His good pleasure."
We all know God is not pleased with our perverse sexual desires and actions. This is written ALL OVER the Law(s) of God under the Old Covenant.
But you must remember, God has made a NEW COVENANT with us... the Covenant of Grace and Power in Jesus Christ. Therefore, rest in Jesus Christ, and STOP RELYING ON YOURSELF to stop sinning, but trust in God 110% to deliver you from any and all sin, HE WILL!! I am a living testimony to how God alone can deliver us from perverse sexual desires. I've been thru all the counseling, cutting of internet, blocking smartphones, accountability, and in the end, the only thing that actually worked was giving up, and "betting" on God to save me. If He didn't I would fall headlong into perversion and go to Hell. But if He saved me.... I would be TRULY free.
You are not destined to a lifestyle of continued homosexual iniquity and sinning in that way. That is a lie from Satan that the world has believed. But that is not from God. You are only "born homosexual" in the same way that every other human being is "born a sinner", and God delivers all Believers from ALL sin eventually. It's just a matter of time.... this is our hope and faith... that Jesus will deliver us from this body of sin.
Now you may ask "What do I need to do in the meantime?".
#1 MAKE SURE you have the Holy Spirit living inside your heart. If God is not there, you CANNOT ever be saved. Thankfully, Jesus' sprinkled blood allows God to pour His Spirit into our hearts if we simply ask the Father for the Spirit of Jesus Christ.
#2 Once you are Born of God (receive the Spirit), you will NEVER go to Hell, regardless of what you do "good" or "bad". Your salvation is not dependant upon your actions, but upon your faith in the sacrifice and resurrection of Jesus Christ. We are saved by our "trusting" in the Son of God, not by our deeds.
"By Grace (NOT law-abiding) we are saved, thru Faith (NOT our actions) and NOT by ourselves, it is a (Free) Gift of God, NOT of works, lest any man try to brag."
And again it is written "Abraham BELIEVED God, and it was CREDITED to him as Righteousness"
And again the Word says "Faith is the victory that overcomes the world".
And again John writes "Anyone Born of God overcomes the world".
#3 Having this Seal (the Spirit) and Assurance (Hope) in your heart/soul of God's eternal forgiveness and cleansing of all your sin, Jesus gives believers methods and zeal to resist temptation when He says...
"If you eye offends you, cut it out".
Jesus is saying "Do whatever it takes to make it impossible for your flesh to sin against the Spirit.
#4 It is good to continually ask God to change your heart. That is the only way you will be delivered from sexual perversion.
In the end, you have to completely exhaust your own efforts to stop sinning, give up of sorts, realizing you cannot stop sinning and unless God saves you, you'll plunge into sexual perversion and go to Hell, and then "risk it all" by fully relying on God to deliver you by changing your heart.
It's a huge, dangerous risk to do this, but I can tell you...GOD WILL SAVE YOU OUT OF ALL SINS!
And remember it is written "There is not a man on earth who goes continually without sinning". and also it says "If we sin, we have an advocate with the Father, Jesus Christ, the righteous One."